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I reallly dont want them knowing what i think about certain things... I know they wont like it and it makes me anxious and worried that they will start hating me or we will start to grow apart even more than we are already. I am not even part of this stupid love thing anymore because no one loves me back X_x.. I am happy for them and that they can tell me their feelings for others but sometimes it makes me want to scream because i know that eventually those people that they love more will replace me in their lives. And even that is great because they will have moved on from me... but i am scared of being alone.. even if i welcome being alone.. if that even makes sense. And now we are doing this super retarded journal entry that i really do not want to do EVER because they will slowly start to hate me from there and their relationship will grow stronger. Idk.. it feels nice to be needed but right now it seems as if i can be replaced in a matter of minutes. They tell me to shut up when i say that... but actions speak louder than words and most of the time i get hit and slapped. Literally. sweatdrop