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This Dam is Breaking
I want to destroy something
just to feel like I have control
I want to watch this world burn
just to know everyone can feel my pain
I want to scream and yet laugh
just to feel as if I am human
I want to breath easy
as if I had no concern

Chorus:
The dam is breaking
emotions rush forward
I'm tired of faking
smiles I don't deserve

I want to abolish this desperation
release myself, unbind these chains
I want to eradicate this guilt
make myself feel like I never failed
I want to make this simple
like all these problems didn't cut so deep
I want to make this better
change this life so pathetic and wasted
(chorus)
I want to control this damage
the chaos that churns inside
I want to stall this downfall
release the tears held by my pride
I want to see this world
flower up and become pretty again
I want to hear the sounds
that compel me to renew my faith in

New Chorus:
The dam that is breaking
The emotions that betray
The smiles I am faking
the words that I say

no, I can't let go
even if this pain is killing me
I will never let it show

no, I will not break
even if this pain is killing me
these smiles I will continue to fake

yes, I see this dawn
even though the pain is killing me
its vital I push on

yes, I can hear you say
even though the pain is killing me
in my heart you'll stay

last six lines are devoted to Sophie... thank you for being there