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Lent is over now...
But I'm going to wait until Easter week is over before I start playing hentai games and consciously seeking out yuri... burning_eyes *withdrawal symptoms* NEEEEEEN!
I'm actually quite surprised... rolleyes
Out of the six lent promises I made, the only three I did not break for the entire time was the not eating pocky, not drinking aloe drink and not playing hentai games one...
Plus I've been subconsciously not reading yaoi! (that's only 'cause JR won't update... evil )
But avoiding yuri has been hard xp
I mean, I can't help it if my dA watches post yuri themed pics...
And technically that part in Nononono doesn't count since one of the girls thinks that the other one is a boy rolleyes

*sigh* I'm strange... And I know it... Sorry...
Now to disclose some not-so-private private thoughts since no one actually reads my journal...
My mum is a bi-polar, schizophrenic, narcissistic, indecisive b***h...
She said I couldn't join the production... But now she says I can... confused
And I was already getting ******** used to the fact that I wouldn't participate...
Gosh... I cried at the airport 'cause of that...
I don't get to cry a lot nowadays... Mama and Ate and Noy-noy won't let me...
They get angry at me and scold me when I cry...
*sigh*
On a random note, I had a strange dream the other day... whee
I actually dreamed that one of the people I love was kissing me... and I wasn't kissing them back...
But it was still wonderful nonetheless... rolleyes
redface Is that perverted? Or normal for an apparent hormonal "teen" to think?
Gosh, I'm a weirdo...

Also to whoever is listening (that is if anyone cares to listen to me) would you please help me make a decision?
Y'see, I have multiple accounts for various sites like FB, Gaia, Yahoo and dA...
And almost all of those accounts have been made tainted for one reason or another... sweatdrop
Gosh, why is almost everything I do so darn incriminating?!
Anyway... I've been contemplating creating a new Yahoo account and a dA and FB with it... ninja
But I don't know... I can't find the heart in me to actually delete any old accounts no matter how incriminating... crying
Should I? That is, make new accounts? And if I do should I delete old accounts?
Oh well...
If I do create a new account for anything it'll either still be along the same lines as Mayonaka_Nek0 (since I haven't made a Yahoo for that) or something along the lines of BlasphemousHaptics ja...

Golly, I know my apparent boyfriend messaged me on facebook but I haven't logged in since I don't know what to say...
I'm so distracted... I'm an awful person...
I have a boyfriend but since we never see each other and since we've never kissed I want to, as they say, "break up" sweatdrop
I mean, it's not right that since we're an item he can't be with other prettier, younger girls...
It's not fair on him, I mean, he goes to a friggin' co-ed school...
I could suggest polygamy but I know he wouldn't agree...
*sigh* I'm an awful person... While being in a relationship with a young boy I have three girls in my mind:
One who's taken sweatdrop , one who is completely oblivious to my feelings no matter how obvious about everything dramallama <- reference rolleyes and one girl who I know I have no chance with but I can't help but love her no matter what she does, how she looks or what her opinion of me is...
But all my relationships are messed up... Including the non-romantic ones...
Gosh, the intervention order's gonna end in five months or so and the mere thought of seeing papa in person is so overwhelming...
********, I hate my parents...

But oh well... Easter's coming up and God should remind me of good reasons to go on...