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There are many things I put up with, but my nerves kind of hit me in a soft spot. As long as I don't think about them, I really don't acknowledge them. Of course, it's never that easy, for my mind wanders through everything going on. I always end up on how nervous I get.Whether it be tests or speeches, even talking to some guy I like, I somehow look like an a**. And quite frankly, on the men part, I never had much of a fighting chance anyways. Besides my constantly violent attitude, always trying to remain an equal to them through wit and sarcastic humor, and my video game habits; I've only been that one close friend...and honestly, it sucks. It sucks and I hate it, and the only reason I can't change is, of course, my nerves.

I often just feel like throwing up at some of the stupid things I say to a cute guy. Like I said, I may have a tolerance for a lot of things, but for today, my nerves are just spinning a kinds of ways.

I know I say how humor is the only true expression of love, but having a pretty face wouldn't suck completely either.And that isn't exactly my forte. Life is cruel, huh?