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3nodding Today is a damn good day! So good I feel like expressing myself with emoticons! ^o^
Well now I feel depressed x[ I swear I have bi-polar...gah! It wasn't even like 10 seconds and my mood changed..I love rainbows...man i love rainbows &3 I really should do my homework but i think i'll do that in 2 hours..or just do it at school..I should Monday at school since its late start, go to the office and ask if there's a class to do work during the morning, that sounds like a really good idea!
I HOLY s**t!!!!!!!!!!! I have tetris on my cell phone! I forgot about that &.& darn it!
It is 9am. I thought it was pm..I didn't sleep last night i'm still awake. God I have to memorize this poem that I don't even know..Alone by Edgar Allan Poe
I have to do it for English, which sort of sucks. I can't wait to get this year over with! Hope I make good grades, I just need to work harder than I have been. I slacked off for a month now..I don't know why..I just lost my motivation. I really wanna know what's wrong with me if I can't stay motivated for school, there's people who can love school more than their home..It makes me jealous because I want to complete school.I'm surviving with grades by just a bit I have D's and 2 F's..I can make one of the F's raise...History. I want to have the bravery it takes to be somebody. I want to push everything off my shoulders and chest and feel like the best person alive. School means a lot to me. I just wish I could show it. That's what's going on with me. That's why im so depressed..I'm scared of what will become of my life if I don't graduate. It's not only graduation, it's getting brave enough for my first job..Yep, I never had a job before..I'm scared of getting bossed around too much and loose my temper. My life is pretty basic. I do simple stuff, I play games, I skate sometimes, I play keyboard, I type like Ecstasy, It feels good to be free with typing. It frees my thoughts. I keep things bottled in and have fun instead of stressing. I can write journals for days..I don't understand love, I hate it when people fall in love with me at school, it gets old and I just don't want to waste my time with it. I'm only looking for friends to talk to. Man i Love my life..I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world. I don't like depressing people &.& even though I myself remind me of one -.-
My dad is pretty awesome. He'll play super Nintendo with me and actually kick a**. expect when it comes down to Mario.. unless its Mario kart. I also have Mario paint. That's interesting stuff. I love anime...Clannad, Eflin lied, .hack, I'm my own inspiration, When I type things I think, I re read it and find myself fascinated. I don't understand myself..I hope someone that talks to me doesn't find me retarded xp
I wonder what everyone likes most about their lives.. I really do.
I'm really not tired..I stayed up all night..Violence is hardcore...I have to admit. I think i'm going to do good with my life, I think i'm going to step up for what I want most..A life I can understand. I like having a life I can control. I like being able to say what I please... I'll tell you one thing what it's like being 18..I also want to remember for the rest of my life so of course imma write it down! One thing is for sure, I had a blast...New years is almost hitting..August 20th is my birthday.. DAMN, i love everything right now. I feel so open minded about my life..I can just type in this forever...Its my escape from reality. <3 best addiction ever. I like old movies...I like 70's show..that's pretty epic. I love game magazines, e.e hella epic. God damn I could type forever..I got the best massage ever...my hips got rubbed and popped into place...my whole spine..it felt so damn good!