My life is hard no one gets that. I have seriously considered taking my own life. and everyone just acts like they dont care. So why would I go back. I'm not stupid. I'm finding ways to help myself. The rumors people spread and the things people will say dont affect me anymore I have to let go. Why dont they understand that. The reason I tell people is because I need someone to help me someone to pull me away from the edge. someone to save me and I thought I had someone I did I was telling myself I can Grow and be a better person and live life to the fullest because of her but then the last light flickered out. slowly dieing out. a lot like my hope which has diminished out. I did get help I did. and one thing she said was these are not the kinda people I would say you should be hanging around so make new friends and reach out to others I did and then I was crushed again! how much and one person take. I have had enough I have a plan and I'm going through with it. I don't need to be this person around Kati I can be myself so I have to leave. Never talk to me again.
one thing I wanna say to everyone is if you know someone who looks like they need help, just say Hi it does help when someone said hi to me i felt like someone cared and I felt like I could go on. and one thing I wouldn't suggest is spreading rumors and hurtful things. its almost like your crushing their soul.
Tonight is the night I will fly, the night I spread my wings and fly away from everything, everything that hurt everything that made me wanna hurt myself.
Tonight right before I logged on I told myself I can do anything, I can be the person I wanna be, I can finally be Emily.
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