Left in the cold [Apr. 8th, 2005|11:10 pm]
[ Current Mood | tired ]
[ Current Music | Alone again Naturally ]
I dunno this has to be one of the worst experiences ive gone threw. This last few days my friend brandon bithday was coming up. Well Janelle, chanel, Ashley, Kellie, and Dayson were gonna throw him a suprise birthday party. I have never had this happen to me but thats not wat im talking about. I found out on Tuesday that they were actaully going to doing this. I was told to just stay quite and not tell brandon about it. I didn't mention about the party instead I mentioned that he should go dancing on friday. He said he couldn't because he was busy baby sitting his brothers and his birthday was coming up and his family was doing someting but he didn't know when. Then today I saw Jerom(i hope it is an m and not an n) and Joseph talking about what they are diong for the party. Joseph told me he woudl tell me later so I figured he would tell me but after class was over I had completely forgetten about it and I was half way home before I remember so i just gave up and decided i just wasn't ment to go they just didn't want me to go. I dont know what im gonna do on monday when they ask why I wasn't there. Either a. im gonna tell him the truth then go back to work and pretend that im not crying or b. tell him that i wasn't invited in a sarcastic voice and just ask him how it was. I dunno which to choose but I know either way wont fix anything so i might just not say anything and try to jsut ignore. I just wish life was easy these last few days has been more than I can handle and I wana go back to wednesday when I felt like I was ontop of the mountain with no major emotions running around inside of my body. If anyone reads this plz post a reply im just wondering if anyone does.
steckle Community Member 
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