b***h!
I felt the pain of dying, when he told me; we should just be friends.
I would have taken a bullet for him. I love he to the end.
He was what I wanted, but yet he didn't want me.
Now I see, that living for him was not where I should have been.
He had me like a puppet, but he didn't know how to work the strings.
He had me like a puppy dog. Running to him when he called my name.
Insane, crazy stupid a*****e I was. What was wrong with my brain?
I cried for him. Felt low for him. I punch a hole in the wall with my fist for him.
He treated me like a mutt, when I treated him like a queen.
So mean, so nasty. I saw him on the other side. Why would I let myself fall to that?!
Too weak inside? Too loving inside? Too willing to lose my mind.
I tried to make him mine.
Forever!
******** you! Yes I tried, why I don’t know. But I tried.
I hate to loose, everyone wants to win.
I thought my happiness was him.
But I was so wrong. My mind lied to me. Let it be?
In the end he was just a waste of my time.
I try not to let myself get too crazy
But every time I look for happiness it seems to slip away, Run away or fade away.
As for me, I am still here.
I will push on to the end. Until I feel alive again.
Numbers still go on 2-4-6-8 who do you appreciate?
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