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Hello my name is Sergio I have two last names but that’s not important.
This is the story behind my madness, hate and I can’t find words for the last one.
To you who will read this. I have never told anyone this story about me.
Not even my closest friends and family so here you go…..

I will skip to the part when my world changed ill tell the beginning briefly. Just to mess with you ill do it so it will confuse you.

I was born twice and died once. I leave and life is thrown at me at a very young age. I grew to hate the world, I was younger than 10. Years come and go and thought I should give the world and its people a chance. everything goes well I see who’s bad and who’s not. Until the time came where that changed and realized there was no such thing. I knew that I was right to hate the world there was no such thing as being bad or good only filth, no such thing as being mature or immature and trust in friends was almost a fairy tale.

I was a student fitting in like everyone else. The right crowd supposedly and to anyone it seemed right. I was healing, retiring my thoughts about people. Maybe I could be happy I meet this nice girl and everything seemed fine until the day came where human instinct and raw filth took a hit at me. Jealousy, envy, hate, pride call it what you will attacked me in one day my supposed friends all at once wanted me out. Out of group, out of class just out. They all voted for me to move and who was there to defend me? No one not even the girl she wouldn’t even talk to me anymore . I was moved to a class where all the bad people go. People who hurt people who doesn’t care people who usually id be scared of. There was a guy there that picked on me well not so much as picked its just that we didn’t like each other. The teacher was strict and mean. You can tell right away that this class was completely different from all the rest.
I came to those phases when the human body needs to cry. My free spirit was dead . But after two days everyone was my friend even the guy I hated in fact he became my best friend the teacher is strict but he was the best teacher I ever had and there will never be another like him. I became silent and hollow but not heartless even though it looks like I am.

Being able to express my hate I was able to love I don’t know exactly how but it did. in the end we the bad people are the ones who suffer the most. I was reborn into some one who loves but shows no trace who cares but does not speak someone who laughs at normal human behavior. Life is a thrilling ride. I have many personalities I benefit from them. I can write more but I wouldn’t know how to explain much of it so ill stop here…..

Ill continue later.