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@ night i think of you . i think of all tha good times we had . all tha laughs we shared . where has all that gone ? its lost in time . time is precious and i cannot stress this enuff ! 14 almost 15 long years i gave you all mha love i gave you all mha heart . but you took it for granted and now you lost mhe . . . in uh sea of tears i have drowned and blinded by anger you are . i wonder when tha day will come that i will actually have tha courage to tell you to your face . or will it bhe to late ? will i have already taken mha own life ? psh who knows . no one really cares anyways . they all say they love mhe but what does that matter if ion have uh family who cares ? dont get mhe wrong i love yall but its just sometimes thats not all tha love uh person needs . im sick of being abused , unwanted , unloved , and unheard ! all of this anger inside mhe . one day ill snap and it wont bhe pretty . s**t and if im lying then im dying ! im really just uh small child who wants to bhe held in tha caring arms of his mother . . . like that will ever happen . smh you have turned mha heart cold and black and it will take alot more than an " im sorry " to get mhe back . death is tha easy way out , to bad im to chicken to do it . this has been an option for mhe for uh while . -shrugs- but it prolly wont ever happen . this is tha only way i know how to express mha self . this didnt really help mhe any but its better than nun . </3