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just friends
"We're just friends"...."stop thinking we're ever going to be together"......"I'd rather die alone than settle"..."there will never be anything between us"....."I don't need anymore stress"...."leave me alone"...."I felt sorry for you".......all these words constantly pounding in my skull and once they've had their fill of driving me insane move on to pummeling my heart until it's nothing but a mass of blood and, what used to be beautiful, emotions. Words that I can no longer avoid. I thought I understood them when you told me before. I thought you were just confused. "I don't know if I have feelings for you" you'd say, so I waited for you. Without that hope that you would develop feelings for me....I feel so hollow, as if my soul was ripped out of this disgusting shell that is me. I want to tear myself apart! I want to shred my own skin and flesh to die naked in the rain. I want to sink into a foggy oblivion where you won't matter. Why did you have to do this to me? Why did I do this to myself? I knew you were too good to be true.
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