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this is the story from a while back. this happen a few years agoe.

I step in the shower. The water hits my face.Louie rubs my belly smiling.
Louie: I'm the happest man in the world.
Kumori: aw really
Louie: yes.. this is one of the best things every in my life.
Kumori: mine to
i smile
His ears stand up.
I get a pain in my side.
Kumori: whats wrong?
Louie: are the babies alright some things wrong.
Kumori: i think heir fine i get pains like that every once in a while . their still young the docture said it might just be from them feeding.
Louie: we need tp take your to th ER.
Kumori: ok help me gert dresses.

Later on i sit on a hostpitle bed in a serical gown.

the docture: we've deicide you need to get a altura sound.
i hold louies hand tigh
Louie: fine just hurry
he puts his hand on my belly
Louie: please hang on my girls
I hide my tears under my hair.
later in the altra sound
the nurse: ok lets look at your baby girlsok umm.. i let me finish the scaning and give it back to the docture and he'll talk with you she walks out.
Kumori: Louie why wont they tell us. y wont they theres some thing wrong.
Louie: i know dont worrie try too... think postive ok sweet heart . maybe theres just a blood clot or some thing.
later in the doctures office
The docture: I'm sorry to tell you this but both of the babies are dead.
Louie:v how the hell coukd this have happened. why dame it.
the docture: it's not eaither of you's faoult they just died. they where prefectly health better then w most babys for this sort along . maybe it was just their dna
Kumori: was my egg not well enought or if its postable his sperm.
louie leans his head against the wall
the docture: most likely yes but we arent exactlly sure now mema the babies are small but big enought that we need to surgictlly remove them
by nopw my face burned from the tears runing down my face.
Loluie hits his head against the wall tears and a few drops of blood from his nose run down his face.
the docture: I'm so sorry we need to remove them as soon as possiable
Kumori; just do it now
Louie walks over to me kisesing me
Louie: im so sorry this has to be mt fault.
Kumori: nonsence never if any ones to blam is me.. they where to. preshes.. im so sorry . please be safe while they remove them
i hold his face whiping away they blood.
Kumori: i love you we can alawys try again

we kiss
later after the surgary.

the docture: dont over stress your self and wait at least a few weeks if you do try again.
Kumori: ok.
we walk out of the room.
Louie: what do we do now
later i lay on the floor of the nursery
Luie: this wasnt supost to happen.
Kumori: i know
i pass him the bottle of schot.
Louie: we did ever thing we were supost to do you didnt even smoke or drink a bit and they still died
Kumori: yeah
Louie: are you drunk
Kumori: i am now you've never failed me i love u so much lets keep trying ok.
Louie: ok but what if this hapens again or we keep geeting negatives
Kumori: then we'll just have to keep tryimg.
i play with his hair as he rubs my belly.
Louie: ok baby
we kiss