So, you know the stereotypes about "playas"? Those guys that manipulate girls to get them in bed, to make girls love them.
Yeah. There are times when I am a total player.
And I kinda feel bad about it. (Not.)
I feel like...I have dealt with SO MANY idiot men that I have the divine *right* to make men fall in love with me just for the rush.
Yeah, I did it this weekend. Set my sights on the hottest guy at work and now have the man (who is about 5-8 years my senior, not entirely sure) completely under my thumb.
I wish I could feel bad about it.
I have ex boyfriends that text me in the middle of the night to tell me that they smelled my perfume in a room and their knees buckled.
Girls hate me because their boyfriends are in my inner circle of best guy friends and they're intimidated.
And I don't feel bad at all.
I am cynical enough to no longer believe in love. I was a foolish little girl at one point, letting myself love...only to get completely shattered in the end when I had to break things off because he started abusing me. So, frankly, all those people that would hate me for what I do can go eff off. Because I am someone who deserves to kick love in the teeth and spit on its bleeding face.
</3 Nix.
~for Beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we we are still just able to endure, and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us; every Angel is terrifying~
xx_Princess_Aria_xx · Mon Mar 22, 2010 @ 04:58am · 0 Comments |