I want to write, but I don't kow about what, so I'm going to seperate everything on my mind into paragraphs, not in any real order, just in the way my brain/fingers sort them out.
Family. I'm really having some issues with them, my mother's side specifically. I don't think we ever got along, but since I now have a personality -somewhat- and I'm trying to stop being everybody's b***h, they're not quite fond of me. The women want me to be a "good Cuban girl", most of the men want to molest me, and my mom isn't listening to me at all when I complain. She actually tries to send me off to them a LOT. They complain to her about how "disobedient" I am, and she listens to everything they say. I'm a perfect fit with my dad's family, which would be comforting if they didn't live in New Mexico [I'm in CA] and if either of my parents cared what their sex trophies were going through.
Nadya. I made a pretty damn big mistake telling her about the Shadows. She has the same thing as I possibly do, which makes it seem like i would be pushing her away. It's only a little while before she gets sick of it. I hated being broken up with the first time, and that wasn't even a "real" relationship. No matter how hard i try to stay guarded, part of me just wants to be vulnerable again. I'll never let that happen, not with friends or girlfriends. It hurts too much because everything ends. Badly.
They. I don't know who they are, they won't tell me. Overuse of the word "they"? Maybe. What else am I supposed to say? They're definitely not any breed of Shadows. They seem content just watching, ******** people at night and jumping into our dreams. My nightmeres are definitely from the or the Shadows, and the Shadows seem to have a sure flair for gore and pain. Slasher movie stuff, tangible. They prefer to dig deep into your psyche, and let your darkest fears come out and devour your mind.
 Beautiful Propaganda · Wed Feb 17, 2010 @ 05:05am · 0 Comments |
