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I want to feel with no pain,
It's just I don't know how...
I try and try,
I sometimes give in.

I want to stop,
Never cut again, it's not worth it in the end.

I used to let the sharp pain rule me.
I'm starting to get in control,
I need to rule my soul.

The cutting won't help,
All it does is mask my pain...
Nothing ever seems to work.
A tear now falls.

As I read this all...
I feel overwhelmed with emotion...
I can start to feel.
Just not pain,
Joy, happiness, depression...
They all come in a flash...

I can't read them all,
Just some.

Now the water works seem to start...
I try to wipe them away,
More just always come...
At least I know the pain isn't just alone...

I'll always remember those sad tears that fell,
With the tears of joy...
I'll always have that knowledge,
It will always stay in my heart...