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Tiger feels...
Like she's sinking in a sea with cement blocks on her feet, and the pressure around her is building and she can't breathe.
OK, maybe not that bad, but not really that great either. I am so worried about so many of my friends, plus school, and college and and and... I'm sure there's something else xP
OK, friends:
One friends, let's call him friend D, I'm afraid he's setting himself up to be hurt. I can't tell a lot, but... he's in love, but I'm afraid the girl is lying to him... it's a long story, and I don't feel like explaining it too much, but anyway. He's seemed extremely depressed recently, and I feel helpless, like I could do more. I know I can't, but still.... I wish there was something I could do.
Other friend, let's call her... friend E. Freind E told me today that she thinks she's pregnant... and I just scoffed it away, because she says stuff like that a lot. But apparently she's serious. I'd like to know HOW this happened (no, not literaly xP) since she is Ms. Abstinence usually. I want to know who. And why. It makes sense now, though... she was looking at a book my grandma got me for Christmas, "The College Girl's Guide," and it talks about safe sex... and it gives common myths about what can and cannot get you pregnant. And she read that you can get pregnant even if he doesn't come in you, and kinda got real quiet. Oh my God, I am worried about her! This could screw (pardon the pun) her whole future!
And apparently, another of my friends was contemplating suicide. Lovely.
On top of that, I'm debating what college I want to go to now and I have big huge scholarship interview coming up and I don't know how well I did on my report card and we got information on the big end of year project today and I've gotta choose the AP tests I want to take and I've got to read a whole book in English and I have a bunch of tests coming up and I haven't been sleeping well and I think I'm getting sick and... and... and... *takes a deep breath* And the fact that I want something to work out in my life, and I'm hoping it will, but I'm afraid it won't... And if it doesn't, I'm scared what will happen.
I feel again like I'm being leaned on by so many people. But I'm going to be strong and not break down. I am here for my friends always, and their problems are more important than my own.
OK, I've said it. I had to say it to someone, so... I did. Don't worry about me. It just feels good to get it off my chest.
QUOTE: "You chested"
"Pirate, love."
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