The more I think, the more I realize. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. My direction is so clear. My path illuminated. And yet, without you it would not have been possible. Passion we had, passion we lost, but knowing what you have done to who I am, I can’t help but to still love you. All those days so long ago, back when we stayed awake all night just talking, they had such an impact on me, I know who I am. I can’t stay in a relationship for too long, this I know now. We might just have to settle for friends. I have places to go. People to help. But always there will be a place in my heart for the only one who truly brought out the me in me, the only one who has removed the mask and seen the man within. You never trusted me, and we know why that was. I can’t change the events that brought that about. All the secrets I have, they will never be told. All the experiences, everything. I bottle things up by instinct…Maybe it’s better this way. I just hope we get to talk together. Because to lose that would be devastating. And frankly impossible. Delete block erase won’t work. No matter how hard you try, I will always be there. You may find your mind wandering one day and think on our memories. For though all of yours may be gone, mine remain. I never erase them.
 Val Ritz · Mon Nov 23, 2009 @ 04:29am · 0 Comments |
