today i kinda learned to be more independent
its weird cuz i've depended on my mom for stuff and like she's not here but she will be on wednesday and like wow...
i cleaned, i cooked, i took care of my sister...
that jus shocks me
i did that for the past 2 weeks and well idk its cool
i mean...i'll admit i'm spoiled and a brat at times but i'm so busy i dont hav time to be spoiled anymore lol
i may not be busy as some people but i'm jus amazed at people who think they're so much busier than me when they're actually not and they use that as an excuse to get out of things
i've done it before but it usually nvr worked but still
oooh and it wuz weird today
cuz a couple weeks ago i wuz thinking about alter serving for my school's masses but i wuznt sure and i kinda depended on my friends
like i wanted them to make the first move but none of them did
then today i got my community stuff signed and the teacher saw how i wuz alter serving for community service and she asked me to serve and i wuz happy cuz idk i jus took that chance cuz i jus really wanted to help out since she said she really needed it and i evn told her that i'd try to ask for more help
and there are some people i dislike.........A LOT
and i kno they're alter servers and i didnt want to ask them cuz i didnt want to serve with them but like............................that sounds so...wrong
so i decided to invite them
sure i wuz hesitating and i might i'm dreading it right now
but i kno i wont regret it as much i dont kno lol
so i made the first move and it feels awesome!
i feel like i grew its an amazing feeling!
okay so i think...loving your enemies is the hardest thing to do lol
i'm jus putting it out there lol
ooooh!!! today!!! so there's this girl and i think she's pretty annoying and she hangs out with one of our friends and i dont mean to bag on her but u could tell that she wuz a wanna-be like...she wuz trying WAY to hard to dress all goth and punk and she makes no sense at all
but she's actually nice and we were talking about this thing and sure she wuz like agreeing with everything i'm saying cuz she thinks i'm all punk and stuff idk i heard her asking me if i wuz punk and i said "uhh i...dont...kno?" and yeah
but wowwww............today wuz supposed to be a short day at school but if felt like it wuz packed with surprises!
i'm like getting my life back on track! i'm trying to get my grades up as hardest i can and well yeah
i'm jus happy about it lol
i mean i do wish for a couple other stuff to happen like getting A's and being the same with a certain friend but still....wow
i hope tmrw will be okay cuz after a great day...the nxt day is always worse lol oh well i'm praying i do well on my spanish quiz unlike friday where i kno i bombed it
~Nicole
(i decided to sign my name or...type it lol)
p.s.....in my other journal entry from yesterday...i said i'd stop cussing.......................................it didnt work out so well BUT I TRIED! really lol
 -xky0ko-chanx- · Tue Nov 17, 2009 @ 07:25am · 3 Comments |
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