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The pain inclines itself into my heart,
digging deep as though I am not powerful enough to stop it,
my tears ponder mercifully attepting to vear around the moon,
As the sun shies itself away and immediate cools out the light that once had been lit.


As you continue to be so careless you don't even notice how you leave me with scars,
It itches themselves so deep only you are the one to mend this shattered mess of me,
But as I cry out one last time falling again hoping that you will now catch me second time around,
as I fall I begin to realize you will never be there and I was too blind enough to see.

My shrill voice tries to speak up, but the words that leave my lips have been muted,
I fall deeper into my own heart ache and suffering I begin to lose my embrace of everything,
The control I once had of my feelings are now edging off the corner,
I let it go, I let you go, I let everything go.


Now as I wait impatiently for my wings to spread out and catch myself like always,
the shattered pieces of my foresaken heart begins to make a pattern of the ones I have decieved,
I try to close my eyes of all the weak and unbinding things I have done but it only grows closer to me,
it itches up onto me and is disolved into my uncomlete soul to leave me here and grieve.



The darkness has finally reached me, the light I once had carried dries up through only me,
as my aura begins to flee the light and happiness I am only left with one thing to keep me fighting, you.
But then it invades through my mind that you will never be there to help me escape this,
You will never take my hand and sooth me with your beautiful voice that had once caressed gently through me.



I open my eyes and I accept what I have done to others and to myself,
it was hard, but life is hard so as I obstinatly abrupted my own grief and pity for myself I come to think I belong like this.
I belong without your arms and embrace, without your heart and your soul, without everything that had once kept me up,
soon, the pleasure of it all escapes with an impulse so powerful I begin to slash my own happiness away.



Moments pass as my heart becomes hollow once again,
as my soul becomes condeming,
and the shine my eyes once beheld, fade off to some other place,
As I am now finally left with what I deserve, as my heart has already been broken.