**This was originally a comment to a good friend of mine, but I decided to make it a journal entry because I put deep thought into it**
I might sound crazy, but I think that after you die, your soul goes to a newborn child and you have a new life as that child. But you don't remember the life you had before, or the ones you had before that. I think it just goes on and on, which is why I'm not afraid of dying... even if nothing happened after you died, I still wouldn't be afraid of dying. Because dying is eternal peace if there's nothing after it 0.0 I mean think about it, you just lay down in the ground forever with nothing to worry about.
To be honest, I'm excited about death because life can be so screwed up at times and it seems like death is just so easy in comparison. Whether you become a new person or you just rot in the ground after you die, you still wouldn't have to deal with anything bad that you had to in the life that you had before.
I sort of admire people who kill themselves, because it means that they've figured out that death is inevitable whether it's on purpose or not, and they're just avoiding getting ******** by life and are not letting themselves die 'by the hand of life' in a sense. So then life can't laugh in their face and be all like "Hah, I ******** you with cancer! Enjoy your last 6 months of me; I hope your husband and your kids enjoy scooping up your s**t and puke BIATCH!!" Something like that... I really don't like the idea of things like that, so I kinda would wanna avoid it 0.0 Not to mention how traumarized those kids would be from cleaning their parents' s**t. They'd prolly have to talk to a psychiatrist or something later on down the road.... Btw I used that as an example because I know someone who actually had to do that for his mother who had cancer.
Life Sucks! D<
