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RED: THE COLOR OF LOVE
I wrote a poem for you
But I ripped it to shreds
And threw it at the sky
Screaming to the heaven’s
The anguish I felt inside.
Unfortunately
I can not say it helped
Because my tears are still falling
On the snow at my feet
Melting the world around me
Tearing my heart to shreds.
I wrote you a poem
It told you how I felt
Exactly how I wished I could say it.
But I tore it up
In the mood of the moment
It was all I could think to do.
And now I'm left with nothing
No explanation to my madness.
No excuse for my tears
Only pain inside and out.
As I see you point and stare
All of you, so heartless.
And so, even without my poem
Without that last goodbye
I worked so hard to write
I take my life.
Not for pity
Because I see that in your eyes
But because I do more bad than good.
And the snow is filled with blood
Red the color of love
Now surrounds me
And for the first time
I'm surrounded by love.


FOLK LORE
Distance makes the heart grow fonder
So I’ll leave you behind
In hopes distance will make you realize
Just what you’re missing
Distance makes the heart grow fonder
So I’ll leave you miles behind
In hopes you’ll love me someday


*UNTIL (YOU'RE GONE)*
You’re the sun that doesn’t shine
When the sky cries tears of pain
You’re the bird that doesn’t sing
Because it’s locked in a cage
You’re everything that’s beautiful
Yet unappreciated till it’s gone


*BATHROOM HOUR-GLASS*
Time passes so slowly
Like the drips of my faucet
As I sit on the tile floor
And watch the tears fall
In a rhythm of pain
I watch the sun set
Out side my window
Casting shadows
On the bathroom wall
I try to catch the tears
Before they fall
But have no luck
And I’ve given up
And I listen as the water
Ticks away time
All to slowly


*BALLERINA*
You take me in your arms
And spin me like a ballerina
Your hands upon my waist
Don't let go
Cause I’m falling for you
You lift me off my feet
A little closer to heaven
Your face so close to mine
Don't drop me
Cause I’m falling for you
I wrap my arms around you
Putting my life in your hands
But I trust you
Don't stop spinning me
Because I love you
And this is as close to heaven
As I’d ever hoped to be


*THINGS LEFT UNSAID*
It’s funny, what you never miss
Until it’s gone.
You say she had so much going for her
But waited till she died to tell her.
Sometimes the things said mean less
Than the things not said.
And you lost your chance to speak.

*WELL KEPT SECRETS*
So many thoughts
Things I’ll never say
I want to tell you
You’re my world
My everything
But I never say that
Not loud enough
For you to hear me
Whisper it to the stars
They know everything
All my secrets
Everything I’ve practiced
Saying over and over
Pretending
Its you I was holding
Not my pillow
The stars, your eyes
The wind, your whispers
My blanket, your arms
Just silly dreams of mine
Of things I’d never dare to do
Things I’d never dare to say
To anyone but the stars


*BITTER SWEET ROMANCE*
I need someone to buy me black roses
Someone to wipe the blood from my wrists
The tears from my blood shot eyes
without asking why I hurt myself so much
Why I stay up at night crying to myself
I need a bitter sweet romance
to sweep me off my soar and tired feet
so hard standing through this all alone
I need a hand that knows how to hold me
but knows when the tears are meant to fall
A bitter sweet romance
Someone to simply hold me through this all


*LOVE SCARS*
Love scars deeper than hate
What's done is done
You can't cheat fate
Said you'd hold me together
Well, you're a little late
And you're the one
That left the deepest scar


*STRIKE OUT MY EYES*
Strike out my eyes
So I can't see you lie to me
So I can't see this fall apart
Into fragments of broken trust
I find myself questioning everything
Touching things to make sure they are real
I never touched you enough
Maybe if I had I would have know
That you were so fake