High schools over.. and im just sitting here...like..what do i do now? i guess its silly.. i go to college and get a job of course
its not silly its stupid i remember 2 years ago..
i would walk into the cafe of my mountain top high school after a 45-50 minute buss ride ..no Rides* is more appropriate -laughs to herself- my school was so freaking far away from society you had to take 2 buss rides usually to get there..and in a sense..i look back that was fun but during the hellish buss ride i cursed the man who invented public transportation
i wondered to myself a lot of the times while sitting in some pointless class i didn't need but was forced to take anyways ..if they set our location so far away.. so they could keep up us from running if we escaped.. i mean.. its kinda like those outdoor prison centers on movies and shows ..everyone has at least heard of Holes the amazing book by Louis Sachar (later turned into an great movie)..the warden who watched over the boys always mentioned how.. they could run.. but there was no food or water for days from the camp and they would keel over from dehydration before they got anywhere. Well our situation wasn't that extreme .. its just.. heh.. by the time you made it off the mountain.. without getting ran over by a passing coal trucks.. they already had cops ready to take you -shrugs- ~jessy trademark.
I completely lost my reason for writing this, oh
well .. now im out of that lovely place i called my high school and dare i say it.. I miss it.. i just helped my brothers get ready for school, we filled book-bags fought about clothing and laughed about the possibility of their new schools serving actual food.. which if they do im going to be totally upset..if i had to endure 14 years of "what the ******** is this?" they should too :/
sometime during these few hours, i started thinking.. im not going back this is it no more school just college and real life.. and now im having one of those "peter pan moments" or more like "what if i fail? what if the real world eats me for breakfast?" moments
i just feel completely useless
eh i guess ill find out.. sorry this was such a long rant xD
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