I'm tired of trying. Its been months since ive cut myself, and i still have to urge to do so. Can you blame me? Its the only way i relive my pain. The pain i get from everyday beatings from my stupid mother. If only all the pain i had would go away. One little cut is all it takes.I barely have any real friends. Just one. Only one. I'm always home alone with no one to speak to. My dog always hides from me under my bed. I get the WORST experiences when im home alone. i hear people calling my name. Sometimes i check outside my window to see if anyone is calling me. Even when my mom is home i hear my name being called. I ask if its her. All she says is "No.". I hate my life and the person that gave it to me. Even one cut can make a difference. But no. I am forbidden from cutting myself ever again. Until im 18 and out to the house. I cannot wait that long to cut myself again. I need to, im craving it. Its my addiction. In reality, i really have no friends what so ever...Only real friend that ever took away my pain is no longer in this world, and i pray for her. Whoever reads this i am sorry that you are. But sometimes writing things helps some of my pain go away...
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