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ok, I think I want to start writing in here again. It feels good just to get these things out of my head, since I really have no one to talk too.
I always want to give up Atem. I am happy with him, but there always seems to be a problem between us. (And the lack of communication does not help)
I love him and I feel like I can't let him go, but I might have to just to save myself from going insane. I don't eat, I drink all the time, I don't do the things I am supposed to do (like homework) and I don't talk to any of my friends...........
He hurts me everyday, with those mean looks and how distant he is.
Then there are the times when he is all over me and I am the happiest person in the world. But those times are few and far between.
I know my love will never fade and will never leave my soul, but the pain needs too. I can't live like this. I can't cry anymore, I don't want to. I want something normal, a love that will love me back.