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Cherish My Pain

[Lyrics: Stefan]

my unbalanced soul is unleashed
pliable desires become real
in my dreams
I try in vain
to sleep on hopes and conquer
the images of despair
oh...untouched beauty..
undo my anger
cherish my pain..painless one
once my precious...now...
be regretful with my frailty
give me shelter in the darkness
and protect me from innocence
helpless am I ..am I so helpless ?
I am restless...release me...
confusing thoughts
forsaken trust
losing the grasp
falling into insanity
...but don't ignore
your weakness for me...


2. The Merciful

[Lyrics: Stefan]

deliverance of souls
to the eternal woe for love
floating...drifting with fragility
and build a forest of innocence
awareness of painful dreams
suffocation of the hearts
castles of pain and agony
rivers of isolation and fear
sorrow's my feeling for your life
regret my emotion for my strife
destined by reality
blessings upon fatality
extinction of remembrance
opens the fatal chapter
trees of mourning
seek the evening sky
as begging hands...the merciful
the untouchable face of despair
will appear in blistering glory
hear the howling of my thoughts
...hear it...

3. In Sweet Bitterness

[Lyrics: Jason]

caress your breasts so gently
I sink into a paradise of my own
the scales of love tip rapidly
in serenity...I cry
I would carve my devotion
in stone
you disgust me
though you're part of my desire
bleak...this tragedy
I crave for affection
I carve my devotion in stone
two worlds they tear me
for thou my love to be ?
pulsating...my wounded heart
I stare at the aging mirror
to this I be assuaged
with hope as my enemy


4. Ophelia

[Lyrics: Jason]

bleak is this tragedy...Ophelia
my darling rose of May
drown...cruel misery
the curse of a broken heart


5. Together In Solitude

[Lyrics: Stefan]

together in solitude
there are no moments of
pleasure...
minds filled with sorrow
not one second of joy
dreams are out of mind
deep gloom has made you blind
dreams are out of sight
I cannot make that right
being alone with your emotions
your howling. who will hear it ?
the agony of love...
pain the ultimate pleasure
is that what he has promised ?
in darkness
you searched for light
paralysed by strangling fright


6. Mother Of All Passions

[Lyrics: Jason]

oh...how I dream...dream of you
my past anguish
fills me with temptation
so clear the memories
of our days of youth
the days of comfort in April bloom
wandering with passion
in our hearts
the scent of spring we so adored
spring sun filling souls with anguish
...with tender ripeness
let me roam with the insects
with passion and kisses
this dying dream...it fades from me
between aging roses
this crimson tear scars me face
......sadness......
it fades from me...this dying dream
fading...from...me...
the days of scarlet passion
the days that stay forever
in my heart
forever scarlet passion
the days of sensual delight


7. Flowerskin

[Instrumental]


8. Afterglow

[Lyrics: Stefan]

in the field of my soul
i lay down and awake ?
with the knowledge
of the once forgotten
seeking harmony within myself
an afterglow of a vague memory
softly veils my demise
excelling myself in my own
...betrayal
drowned in oceans of vice
virtue is lost
exiled into the barest part
of my own nature
another afterglow of the past
now softly veils my plight
disgracefully I am the beholder
of this tragedy
condemned to be my own...
antagonist


9. For Eternity

[Lyrics: Stefan]

pictures of euphoria in a long forgotten memory
in the fields of eternity we were
a lifetime in heavenly spheres
utopia...we had it in our minds
the crimson sky is our guard to protect us from invading sins
living in immortality a life in love and peace
don't you turn away...all we need is
to stay together...forever and ever
times of joy is all we know
playing on grounds of imagery
dancing on graves to love the dead
laughing to fade our cries away...
our wings won't break cause we fly
through eternal skies where we can't grow weary
...our blood flows on...
...and on...we're chained...we're one
...one we are...
the truth is our weapon in a war of lies
we are the chosen ones to live in our human world

1. Above Azure Oceans

away from this planet
onwards to a second earth
the destination of this flight
or is it a bad trip?

hiding in the shadows of life
and far away from the light of doom
passing into surreality
into a paradise never explored before

a part you are in the chain, the chain of angels
that seek the night, the night sky

miles, hours, lives away from here

above azure oceans
through landscapes of forgotten times
in mountains of mist you fly, you fall

yeah, my child you'll come back sometime
oh my precious, you'll come back to me

1. Decamerone

[lyrics:Jason Kohnen]

I hear the music
sweet tunes that caress my soul
music begging for music
it woes my soul ...so...

it enchants me...
...feeding my hunger
but I'm hungry for more
...so much more..

food for the poets thought
ink for the thirsty pen
lust like the ravaging whore
bringing on her final encore

show me the notes to the music
show me the words I can't find
write me a poem that touches me
playing this song as you write...


2. Solar Child

[lyrics:Stefan Ruiters]

solar child is burning my eyes
she's still burning my eyes

would you give it to me
all the love you have
child...would you give it to me

all I had inside I gave to you
I want you to give me the same


3. Body As Canvas

[Instrumental]


4. Soft Embalmer Of The Still Midnight

[lyrics: Stefan Ruiters]

shutting with careful fingers
our gloom-pleased eyes
to walk through gardens of delight
we'll live in our dreams

this night, we'll live our dreams
our secrets will be sung
they slip away from your lips
into the sweating midnight air

you make our dreamscape
feel like falling
falling from the highest mountain
into a valley of green, soft leaves
gliding through this passing day

enshaded in forgetfulness
we create our ideal world
banished is the rage of yesterday
dawn falls for the morning to shine

awake, new-born, you fade away...
...for another day...


5. Will You Wait For The Sun?

[lyrics:Jason Kohnen]

the cold water in which I stand
portrays the tears I once cried
I face a sunset of sweet sins
in a dusk of perishing hopes

I bear the shroud
that once warmed me
I bear a torn shroud
that now grieves with me

I wash my hands
with glory that once was
with might once shared
through my fingers it slips...
...alas...it slips...

blissful winds that covet me
offering wings of shining silk
they whisper to me
will you wait for the sun?


6. The Holy Snake

[Instrumental]


7. Dancing To A Thousand Symphonies

[lyrics: Stefan Ruiters]

remembering the melodies
in a room with glowing stars
with a thousand symphonies, right
I still recall a smile on the wall

not forgetting the beating on the drums
under a blood raining sky
with the roaring of thunder, okay

dancing to a thousand symphonies
my feet are off the ground
dancing to a thousand symphonies
I love transcending sounds
my feet are off the ground
I love these transcending sounds


8. Vienna

[by Ultravox]

we walked in the cold air
freezing breath on a window pane,
lying and waiting
the man in the dark in a picture frame,
so mystic and soulful
a voice reaching out in a piercing cry,
it stays with you until

the feeling has gone only you and I
it means nothing to me
this means nothing to me
oh, vienna

the music is weaving
haunting notes, pizzicato strings,
the rhythm is calling
alone in the night as the daylight brings,
a cool empty silence
the warmth of your hand and a cold grey sky,
it fades to the distance

the image has gone only you and I
it means nothing to me
this means nothing to me
oh, vienna

this means nothing to me
this means nothing to me
oh, vienna


9. Fandago

[Instrumental]


10. The Scent Of Eve

[lyrics: Stefan Ruiters]

...and I find light in the tears
from your eyes
...and I hope in the tears we cry
for now we cannot
let them fall anymore
in the light of day we can only sigh
the twilight embraces our souls uproar
through the woods we'll run
where natures caress is sweet
in solitude we find each other
I trace your warmth
you treasure my strength
in these days we share tomorrow
exiled you once were
and exiled we are now
in the barest part of our shared nature
because I sank so deep
...so deep to find you
I stare at your face
the untouchable one
I wantedt to touch it...to hold it
but life turns away...forever...


11. A Tune From The Majestic Queen's Garden

[Instrumental]

1. Astral Dub

I can be wrong, I can be wrong but something lies
the astral skies, can't get these pictures off my mind
smoking sunshine, can't get my feet back on the ground
the astral skies, they keep me rolling ... rolling high

I can be right, I can be right but something lies
the astral skies, can't get these pictures off my mind
smoking sunshine, can't get my feet back on the ground
the astral skies, they keep me rolling ... rolling high

they keep me rolling high

like if I smoked a million, we have got a mountain full of
speed
we take another one for his millions, we have got a forest
full of weed
we're smoking anything we can do, we're breathing sound into
the sky
we keep them rolling high

but that's why I keep falling
because I never thought these pictures in broken glass
could ever come again ...And now I burn

I wanna give it to you huney


2. Icarus With You

and now I fly closer
a million miles ahead and I keep falling, all over
the day slides like an orange glow in hell
but I can't tell
and you're near now, I want this, near me in my life
but we can't take this for answers and tomorrow

for me and her to say: "We're in heaven now"
we're in heaven now
falling from above, we're in heaven now
my wings will carry you away

together but alone, we're in in heaven now
everything is gone, we're in heaven now
we're in heaven now
golden feathers fade away

we didn't even try, we're gonna stay up late
we didn't even try, before the night gets on it's way

coloured eyes again, we're in heaven now
everything is gone, we're in heaven now
we're in heaven now, golden feathers fade away


3. Pegasus

I never thought I could lose you
I never thought it could come
I never heard of confusion
head down with a hole in my heart

and now I'm head down, down and out again
calling back again

we had it perfect in our heads
like the feeling never ends
my lines were clearer than today

feels like I'm losing my head
I've got it all but nothing is there

calling back again


4. King Lizard

I heard you're talking of innocense and self control
and all these reasons you're dying of
fear for an eye and a reach out as falling becomes part of
your day
these cold winter skies at the birth of July
I can see you're visions through this window for all the undo-
ne

I wanna take you to the passion

I can feel you breathing in waves of my own because I had this
first dance alone
and I know that a mirror wall is a hard thing to see through
as your beats are unstable
but this corner of silence, this grey eyeing nothingness
Is the best thing you have after coloured years as you become
me

I wanna take you to the passion

no one speaks at the first day of his life
no one speaks at the moment he dies
a better life in colours
the feeling cares

1. Wallaroo

Into the desert sand, feelings grow inside me
they took my heart away
into the border land, feelings so inside me
into a strangers head

Wallaroo

desert queen you are the only
to connect me with the stars
desert queen you are the only
but it has been so long
I've been too long, nothing

Wallaroo


2. Too Much, Too Soon

Even the words came back, but I cannot rely on what they became to me
even the sounds came back, but it's hard to hear the vibes when you away
even the worst will say that I'm free to stay out in my cargo-bay
back on the sheer attack, where it comes and goes around onevery day

turn me on make me wild
come see me down there
you showed me your style there and I said 'wow'


3. Black Queen Is Dynamite

Common baby touch the screen
come through the screen of my old black and white TV
I can't taste this
I can't let you

are you walking alone?
is it all in your rigid head?
all this madness you drag

now you're totally grown
but the storm in your weary head
fills the room that is not for two
not for you
not for your eyes boy

are you walking alone?
is it all in your rigid head?
all this madness your drag


4. The Orleans Capsule

Here she comes see the shine of her velvet afterglow
feel the flow and the heat of the body generator
one more show through the orb of a million years
one last show another ride into the dustzone

free to run through the fields of the unseen silverbow
now I now live is easy today

if I could control myself I would leave it for tomorrow


5. Carmencita

This is it
the last stroke ended up in dust
fear for the next one belongs to the past
I wont go there no more
I will close no more doors

fade out, fade away for good

songs from the inside exhale the lost
of the few good times we had
yet there is still more to come
there is so much more to come

fade out, fade away for good


6. Salamandra

Did you reload your phasers
and wipe out the neutral zone
cause were heading for Zula I
to embrace the silver shining

did you refill your lasers
and break through the cosmic tones
and bring all the stardust home
cause you're the only one and the only son
and that's OK 'cause

it's allright, we've got the sunlight
rocket to vulcan is launched tonight
I'd like to feel the burning chrome
it's allright, we've got the sunlight
rocket to vulcan is launched tonight
I'd like to see you coming home

did you swallow your ego
and rejoined the devils show
if you want it than make it so
but I just wanted you to go, go, go

did you refill your body
and blow up the fuel inside
break through the solar light
'cause your the only one and the only son
and that's OK 'cause

it's allright, we've got the sunlight
rocket to vulcan is launched tonight
I'd like to feel the burning chrome
it's allright, we've got the sunlight
rocket to vulcan is launched tonight
I'd like to see you coming home


7. One Eye Generator

Hey now, I heard that the old song was fooling me
lay down, start throwing gifts for a while
stay down, deep inner heart feeling jealousy
Hey now, life isn't easy she said

was it anything she said?
to the skies above me now
was it anything I've heard?

welcome to the glory
could it be for all
welcome to the glory

hey now, I heard that the old land was calling me
lay down, try to remember those lies
stay down, deep inner soul feeling harmony
it is never gone, when it was something she said

was it anything she said?
to the skies above me now
was it anything I've heard?

welcome to the glory
could it be for all
welcome to the glory


8. Warp Speed To Vulcan

Daisy come again


9. Diabolo Cruiser XL5

When the walls are coming down
and your balls are burried underground
with a mind out of reason and the roadkill in your mouth
but I just can't stop squuezing and I don't now why

and I'm feeling scared


10. 1000 Things

and everything could be much clearer
and everything can be so cold
come see the eyes of innocense
believe it or not they'll be dammed


11. Daisy's Lunch

I've got the urge and soul to go
I've got the green for my juice-ride
spent time in sad machines

I've got my kicks on Orleans time
the clock went dead at zero-zero
the crowd went dead at dawn

running with my head

you got a million miles to run, you got a million miles to go
to get a ticket for the freakshow

running with my head


12. Dive

I've got the urge and soul to go
I've got the green for my juice-ride
spent time in sad machines

I've got my kicks on Orleans time
the clock went dead at zero-zero
the crowd went dead at dawn

running with my head

you got a million miles to run, you got a million miles to go
to get a ticket for the freakshow

running with my head


13. Risin' (Out Of The Loop)

I've got the urge and soul to go
I've got the green for my juice-ride
spent time in sad machines

I've got my kicks on Orleans time
the clock went dead at zero-zero
the crowd went dead at dawn

running with my head

you got a million miles to run, you got a million miles to go
to get a ticket for the freakshow

running with my head


14. Diesel Reptile

I've got the urge and soul to go
I've got the green for my juice-ride
spent time in sad machines

I've got my kicks on Orleans time
the clock went dead at zero-zero
the crowd went dead at dawn

running with my head

you got a million miles to run, you got a million miles to go
to get a ticket for the freakshow

running with my head

1. Jupiter

Last night I went to Jupiter
and silently I stayed
until I caught the daybreak on the seventh moon
breathing in the juvenile
naked to the bone
sitting on the bottom of my soul

Open up to the sound on Celestials playground

I'm reaching out to willpower
staring at the strobe
I never thought that speed of life could kill my thoughts
trying to come clear now
my engine running slow
falling like a comet heading home

Open up to this sound
let the magic come over
and freak out


2. Coming Down

There's an echo coming back
from the walls that you painted
when the truth was mistaken
was breakin' in two

There were few things you needed
there were bullocks down the road
did you ever believe it?
are you really that strong?

There's an airship coming down
through the clouds that your chasing
...


3. Stardust

Stones, I'm moving through
stardust on my shoe
responding to a tune
"hi there, who are you"

Chrome is supersonic

Smoke, from burning rocket fuel
at full speed, to uriah blue

Chrome is supersonic


4. Monumenta

Put down your load and go to sleep
untill your ready to
wipe all the burden of your sleeve
do what you think you should
released from matter you'll be free
be free from agony
but your so proud, waitress
do love your sister, girl

You look good and you're certainly prescious
but honney your so confused
it's okay... an eye on the exit
freaked out and veiled
a see your face in the middle of traffic
so tender and full of charme
free yourseld, be yourself, free yourself
hold on


5. Retrosky

These are the eyes of the in between, the voices in my mind
cut the light and break the screen untill I feel allright
got the touch to free myself from smoke in my belief
these are the eyes of the retrosky, so baby, set me free

Don't let it go
don't let it go
besides the choking I feel fine
I've got to focus on my rhyme
I've got my hands on solid ground
my retrosky won't let me down

Do you remind me of the ride abroad when the grass turned blue
as we zoomed through?
You put this thing in me and now I can't break loose


6. Trancewagon

[instrumental]


7. Who Sent The Workers Back Underground

Under the ground
amongst their fears
black water sound
from which they run

Under the earth
amongst their tears
under the surface
apart from love

Hail

Watch me, I'm awake
but now you're kicking my heart out
you murderer


8. 21:20 Desire

Twenty past nine, desires awaken
atracted by the light of your eruption
probably out of illumination
concession blind, reduce this fiction

Shake it up
don't fool me around

Sweatting for a piece of late night mixture
lust for lies under the morning sun
darling you reallly drive me crazy
so burry your pride and dig up mine

Common' and shake it up
don't fool me around


9. Alooka's Boulevard

You take it slow
maybe you've got it all under controll
just wait and see
save yourself from the ego in me
you blaim me for
every damn time that I couldn't be yours
you're killing me
now I step back, step back from your heartache

I'll dissapear
and leave you for love on a higher degree
forever free
is'nt that just what we wanted from each other

You've got it all so clear
this is the last time that I came so near
you've got it all so clear
forever tumbling down, tumbling down and running away

run from here into the dawn


10. Millenarian Drive

Come to the world where the sane man crawls
and drop a lot of worries there
feel delight
wrong for a while when the wind went dry
it took a minute to deny it's sad song

Come to the world where the good man saw
and grab another bottle man
flush it down
hold up your hands to the intemate crowd
"superior life... let's try it out"

Makes me crazy to agree with the reasoned crap they still proclaim
my son, come to the world where the sane went numb

I traded trust for the wrong kind of answers
made me longing for the dark
but I became one with the sparks of my own fire
and now insanity is moving out of town
ride on, I rest my case
ride on, this sadness will break
I'm living next to the restless
I'm living next door to hate
but I call it out