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Song #26

"Breakdown"

I'm so unsure
As I lock the door
I let go of my cure
You think you know
But you didn't have a clue before
I have to hide my arms again

I have tried, but don't you see?
That I'm still confused
I cannot look, is that really me?

I'm crawling and hiding in my lies
And I will not answer why
I slip out words that I don't mean
The real ones are buried inside
It's just a bad habit
I wasted everything
So I'll kill my breakdown
I'll kill my breakdown, right now

We can all pretend
But I'm tired of it now
I lied to myself yet again
Don't ask why or how
Because I don't know how
Don't know how I got this way

I have tried, but don't you see?
That I'm still confused
I cannot look, is that really me?

I'm crawling and hiding in my lies
And I will not answer why
I slip out words that I don't mean
The real ones are buried inside
It's just a bad habit
I wasted everything
So I'll kill my breakdown
I'll kill my breakdown, right now

I'll scream it out loud
Then maybe I'll know how
I'll never bleed again
At least, not intentionally

I have tried, but don't you see?
That I'm still confused
I cannot look, is that really me?

I'm crawling and hiding in my lies
And I will not answer why
I slip out words that I don't mean
The real ones are buried inside
It's just a bad habit
I wasted everything
So I'll kill my breakdown
I'll kill my breakdown, right now

I'm crawling and hiding in my lies
And I will not answer why
I slip out words that I don't mean
The real ones are buried inside
It's just a bad habit
I wasted everything
So I'll kill my breakdown
I'll kill my breakdown
I'll kill my breakdown, right now