Ok, so...havent been on here for a few days, cuz ya know...the same old same old.
got cought on the comp by my brother again><
It sucks, but...*shifts eyes back and forth* Im not supposed to be on here until tomorow either...but shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, its our secret *winks* hehe
Well my moms back...so thats good change...though she's making me stressed a bit.
Though because she's here I can get on the comp. My brother works night shift at timhortons...arg, hate working there><
It sucks...ya I worked there before...got fired lol^^
But it all worked out cuz I didnt want to work there anyways LOL^^
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANYWAYS, my brother works night shift and he takes the comp. cord with him so I cant get on, but then since my mom is here, she wants the cord...and...well I just ask her to go ona nd she says yes^^
So...thats...um...about it really.
Um...well I just got free of having an untrue friend sleep over, which is the biggest relefe in the world!
We got into a little fight to...and some other stuff happened as well.
Care to listen?
Well...my brother and his friends gave her some alcohol on canada day. She had some left over, I drake it.
though to tell you I dont like being drunk...I...I know this sound shorrible, but I prefer to be high then drunk...its funner.
Anyways, We played some games out in the living room then decided to go into my brothers roon and play mario...
I sat on her lap...and...well I was thinking about kissing her, and making a move...ya know.
If I havent told any of you before, then I'll tell you know.
I have started to develoup feelings for her since I met her...well it develouped over time, but...ya.
We talked about it and things, but she just...kinda ignored my feelings.
Anyways, now that thats explained, I did.
I took my chances and kissed her. I kissed her for a few minutes...she kissed me back just as equal...equal the strangth, equal the feelings.
I didnt that for a while...I also kissed her neck a bunch of times.
And every time she gave me positive signs. Like she wanted more...so...I gave her more.
When I was kissing her neck, she leaned her head back and...she was smiling the whole time.
She would hold the back of my head when we kissed and things like that.
...It...was just that she was giving me signs that told me she wanted more...
But really...by the end of the night, I realised that it wasnt what I expected.
It wasnt grand at all...which had freed me from the feeling of loving her.
I feel so much weight lifted off me, and Im so happy that I dont have these feelings for her any more. Because she's not at all good to me...she never was.
From the biggining we met...she hasent changed...the way she acts...not one bit!
Im so happy about that, because I have just freed the rest of myself. So now Im a competely free spirit.
I have nothing I have to worry about...or care about.
I also can leave her behind now. I can move on. I dont care for her anymore really...I dont care what she does...and I dont care if we never see each other again.
...
I can completely forget about her...and her memory.
 Kuma Naru · Sat Jul 04, 2009 @ 07:52am · 0 Comments |
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