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- Aak!

Under loosing a game, I have to become Sean's slave. And so, I decided, "Hey, since I have to for a month, it'll be your birthday present." So today, I had to be. He came over, and had some fun. He enjoyed calling me slave and ordering me around. When I didn't listen, he set up a "punishment" mark. I got 14.

He wanted his hat back, but I refused to give it to him. So he sat on top of me. At first, he caused some pain, but then he started creeping me out; it consists of turning me on, but since I don't like him like that, it creeps me out afterwards..

He was teasing/creeping me out, and.. -shudders- Half of our bodies were touching, and I could feel it. His body was very hot (temperature wise). Augh! I'm just glad we were sitting on the couch.. He kept snuggling me and it creeped the hell outta me, as well as did something else.

Unfortunately, he found a spot that some girls have: the palm. Of course, he had me off guard. He just decided to stroke it with a finger, and when I told him to stop, he knew then what it did. So Sean decided to push it further. I struggled with him for a bit, but then he kissed my palm. It embarrassing, but... I gasped in shock. He thought my reaction was hilarious. Probably 'cause I grabbed my hand and cuddled it to my chest, instinctively. Probably because I told him to never do it again. Also, maybe it's because I was blushing a lot and curled up into a ball, in a desperate attempt to hide not only my face, but my hands as well. Though there was a reason for my blushing.

I didn't expect him to do that. I expected him to bite it. Also, though I loathingly have to admit... The softness of them really startled me.. I just pray he doesn't try to use them elsewhere...

Now I know it sounds like I like him when I'm complaining about it, but I don't. It's just been so long since I've had any kind of physical ties with someone, so it's difficult to not be turned on when a friend does that. Hmmm... A better way to put it.... My main innocence hasn't been wiped away. It's still there. Even though sometimes I'm sick minded. Anything anyone would do, I still get so embarrassed!

Yeah, he made fun of me when I stuttered and hid my face with my hands, too. I got a little shaky, too. He scared the crap out of me!!

-sighs- And I have to deal with this crap for at least a month.