june 25, 2009 6:31pm. this was aheartbreaking time for me. scruff my beloved mouse died during feeding............hmm.....thats to formal.....lets try this again.....today, june 25 09 at 6:31pm my mouse scruff died, i was hearbroken, i was holding him in the tissue like i always do and took the seringe and had fed him some more milk, but he never ate it, i looked at him with horror in my eyes i knew at that very moment he was dead i moved him from one side to the other to comfirm and i showed my mom, i immediatly felt my face turn red and tears stream out of my eyes, i showed my dad and later he came up and said "hes dead" and i said "i know". mother instinct i guess. ive prepared an "speech" kinda thing for both scruff and stripes.
I remember the day i got my miricals. my mom had woken me and said "wanna go on a rescue mission?" i got up wondering what shewas talking about.and found out my dad had rescued a baby mouse, the tiny mouse who helped me, he was small, i didn't name him until my dad calledand told me he rescued another mouse.once i got both of them i compared the second was bigger and had scruffier fur and the first had a stripe on his head. I named them stripes and scruff.they are my miricals because they reminded me to be happy and not to be depressed. stripes died on june 22, 2009 at approximatly 12:00 noon, and scruff died on june 25, 2009 at 6:31pm.i kept strips'es box and scruffs cage to remind me to be happy and to remind me of them. they charmed many hearts, and tried there best, they lived long for babys that where sick. I cried for both but ill never forget them, or the lesson they taught me. They will be missed.
i prepared this as i wrote down there deaths on my callender, as i rewrote this onto the internet i could feel the sence of the haert felt power this "speech' thingie holds.indeed they did charm hearts and they indeed teach me many lessons, they taught me many things, here is a list, they taught me how to be motherly and gental, they taught me to defend them and myself, they taught me how to have motherly instincks and to know when something is wrong, they taught me im never alone, they showed me how i can triple task, they taught me i can work and be focused without much sleep or eating, they taught me that when im in pain, as long as i have them i can get through it easy, they taught me how to be considerate, and the taught me how to love, they taught me how to not be picky, this is just the begging of the long list of things they taught me, they may not be here now, but my love for them is eternal. i will always think of them and be happy knowing i did my best and that i can go on without them, because just a bump in the road cannot stop you, you have to be prepared to keep going or stop and live at that moment forever, i choose to go on, though i may leave these moments behind, does not mean i will forget them or stop loving them, it just means, i can be happy, and miss them at the same time, by now there with their mother and sibling (that died in the hibay) in heaven looking over me.
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