Today was my first day to go to Woodwind Sectional. It's like a Marching Band rehearsal but for woodwinds only. It's a great time to gather with people that has a somewhat common ground, but at the same time it's unfamiliar because I'm a beginner at this. It's fine like this because I love to get used to the surroundings and the routines. It gets me to become determined.
However, there's this one girl, who I think is very energetic and great to hang out with, that seems like she has some kind of grudge against me. Whenever we talk, it seems fine on the outside, but it's like she's trying overwhelm and outbest me and several others.
In the two years before this year, she was always one chair higher than me in concert bands. Probably because I was too lazy and VERY quiet(Did I mention I was shy too?). I was always nervous to show my skills, definitely an opposite of her. But the year that has past recently, I kind of, umm, surpassed her and another girl and became first chair, which I'll always regret.
Those 2 girls have worked so hard and I just suddenly past them with a music audition. I still feel horrible now. I try to make up for it by nominating the second chair girl to be president of the band club(and she did)and talking happily to them and deny taking the piccolo and its solos. But it just feels like I atoned enough, so I'm thinking of quitting private lessons and just be lazy again, which is becoming my habit now.
I kind of believe that, for me, being the best seems a bit terrible. But that's okay because I have another greater purpose. It'll keep me a bit busy(kind of).
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