I'm a what......listen I didn't play anyone okay.....I try 110% in every ******** relationship I've been in, real life and online...saying the right thing, doing the right thing, making her-you-them feel like their specail because they-you-them are specail....I try so hard but in the end most of the time I'm the one that brakes down inside and no one even knows it......they think they know but they don't...all they would have to do is read my dark poetry and see how ******** UP INSIDE I AM.....I hurt too, just because I'm a boy doesn't me that I don't hurt or cry sometimes and it may sound stupid or panssie like or gay but it's all true and you really want to know something.......no girl...that I've dated...so far has...been able....to understand it.....or comfort it....maybe at first....they help but sooner...or later...the feelings come back....they always come back....but you girls think that this....online datting me is just...a joke or nothing...at al but its not................
cry cry and until someone does, I woun't be able to really be in love.....thats why I get hurt, from myself and they don't held it either.
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12/18/08 “Being Used” By: Brandon K. McLemore
I wish to see the light that sleeps within you. The light that rests in the deepest recess of your soul…A light that may cast away the hate of everything in my he
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*sigh* love sucks at times but it gives a great honor to even learn you can have such a wonderful thing...... dont think that your alone in this world.... your not i am not sure you believe but god is also here too..... i am here..... in spirit to you..... and for John.... for all my friends and famliy.... Brandon every one feels... thats what makes us human.... i havent told any one online but i was begging for death because i felt so hurt in side..... my sister got me to stop.... but the feeling that i am at fault for what happened to John still stings like poision..... no i dont think it is a joke i take it very seriuosly because i have faith that the one i am datting well be faithful..... but....... please dont let this hold you back from living life.... your living.... i am the death.... and please dont let me or any other girl tell you other wise....... i can not warm your cold body because i am not one with mine...... i am sorry Brandon.... i have to tell you some thing....... my real name is Regina and Amy is only my middle name... i put Amy as my real name so non of my real life (was) friends wouldnt find my and send me hate mail...... i am sorry....... i dont want you to think life is a game.... LOVE in real and when you find that girl of your dreams you well love her to death as in life....i am sorry....if you dont understand now.... then maybe in time you well under stand........... Brandon you are close to me and know that isnt going to change..... i maybe engaged but that doesnt mean that i cant help out my friends and famliy in any way i can..... just know i am right here when you need me..........no matter what.....promise...... crying sad emo cry