My class started just a day ago, but i got sick after the second day. For some reason, while I'm here lying at my bed and staring at my lap top's screen, I somehow find it more comfortable. I find that being alone ,away from everybody, away from those who I knew and I don't, is more comfortable as if living in your own world. I have known many kinds of people and had the knowledge of what to do at many kinds of situations, but I still don't feel like showing my real self to anyone. I still want to move as my so called virtual me...
The feeling of confidence that you could say anything, you could do everything through this four cornered box. Looking around it, feels like I am free. Better than walking around a place I already know but I still get lost. It feels more free to stay in this box and reach out to others through this wires than to walk around using a body that hides your reality, more like a cage that keeps your real self from soaring out through the sky... The locks are those people that you think are your friends but instead they keep you from showing yourself, thinking only for their own pretending to care for you but the truth is they make decisions for you and force you to be another person they would be pleased with...
Life, is a word I could never understand, why do I need to have so much knowledge about people's personality and how they think, how I easily see who they are and who are they hiding and yet they won't let me show the me who is trying to break free...
Maybe I'm just too scared, or it's just reality that my virtual me is better than this body...
 Namiyo Yankomi · Wed Jun 10, 2009 @ 03:07am · 0 Comments |
