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A continuing hell
My life is hell.My brother spent the night at my cousin's house, and he came back demanded me to get hi food and get off the computor.As always my mom did nothing.Sometimes I feel like I'm Cinderella, except I can do more.Also yesterday my uncle was saying I'm not emo.Well let me tell you, I can't afford most clothing that "emos" wear.I get most of my clothes from my older richer cousin.And she doesn't talk too much, one reason is she's shy.The other reason I will not mention.But still, I;'m tired of people treating me like s**t and expecting to be treated like royalty by me.No one even pays enough attention to me.Except for Marie, but sadly she died.Only to save me.May she rest in peace, she was the ony reason I didn't do something.I mean it.And something else.I don't even think most people have interest in me.I am usally ignored and shunned.Well I also like to shun myself from the world.That is why I do something so idiotic.I know I need to stop, but I can't.If someone paid any interest in me.I would stop.Only my music and what is left of Marie is stopping me from dieing.Also my friends.I don't really care what people say about me anymore.I just want to die.I feel like noone has interest in me.I just want one person to show interest and be there.Like Marie was.Marie knows I do stuff, and she knows what I am currently doing.She made me quit before, but now she can't.I wish upon shooting stars, but they don't seem to hear me.If I could have one thing in this world..................it would be death.I always think death is a solitude.I almost died several times before.My Dad saved me those times.Marie the others, but now......who is.Exactly noone.I learned lessons the hard way.If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself.And my other lesson.Trust noone, then you can't be betrayed by the people you thought you could trust.Well I'm gonna wrap this up now.Hope your life won't be a living hell like mine. cry
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