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Hey whats up! Its been so long since i typed in here. A lot has been going on in my life. that includes a lot of crying and depression. Im proably going to end up alone in the future. Loveless and friendless. crying I am losing so many of my friends its unreal. I try to the myself that this is real but it seems to be like a bad dream u cant wake up from. I love all my friends. They r like family to me. heart Mike is going to leave the group. I cant blame him. I mean everyone has been so mean to him and caused him so much pain and suffering. I would leave to if i were him. But i have a problem with this because half of me wants him to stay and the other have wants him to leave. I want him to stay is because he is like a brother to me and i also have feelings for him. heart I want him to leave because i dont want him to suffer anymore. cry I just dont kno what to do. crying Its tearing me apart. I cant stand losing anymore friends. It just seems that i should leave the group for a while so i can think and get things straight. I kno everyone is not going to like that answer including mike and nate. But i think it is best for me and the group to take a break from all this stress, sadness and depression. I need time to think and clear my head and staying in the group is not going to help. Right now i need to focus on what is going on in my family. I have been so focused on my friends that i forgot my family. I need to help my brother, sister, and dad through this hard time for us. I just cant take it anymore! i might just kill myself! crying Well if i dont write in here again i might be dead or i left the ether way i might be gone. Proably forever. Welln if u have anything to say or comment or give advise just leave it in my comment box. I will still love you all even when im gone. Peace and love. heart crying heart
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