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I see you everywhere. Not you, but things about you, that relate to you. They are signs. I can tell. So can my friend. Will I take these signs? Not just one, but them all? When one asks me a question, will I say yes, and forget about the other? Or will the other pop into my mind as I say, I'm sorry, no?
What happens if I say yes? What would happen to my friendship with her? We've been friends for about 11 or 12 years now. What then? If and when the other finds out, what would he think? What would he do? Nothing? Probably, he cares, I know he does. He just doesn't show it as much. I know him too well.
What if I say no? Will he blame it on the other? Would he be mad? Of coarse he will. What would he do then? What would I do? Walk home... Would I try to explain to him? What would my friend think? Would she be happy? Of coarse. She "loves" him. Or so she thinks... What would the other one say? Would he actually reply? Would he comfort me? What would happen if he found out that he was the reason I said no?
What's going to happen at camp now? Why can't it be like last year? Man, I miss him.
What if I don't go on with it? Would it be the wrong decision? Is this what I'm supposed to do?
I get sick to my stomach writing this... What is that supposed to mean? Does it mean anything? Or is it just me? What is going on?
I know what to do now...