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UPDATE!
once upon a time, i told you a saddening story about my ex and well how much of an a*****e he is for what he did to me. and i told you about this date that i was going on.. well see this date did not go as i planned. he took me to his house, and we watched bad boys 2. when i thought he was going to take me home, he didn't. i ended up staying the night at his place. gah. baddd. so when i would talk to him for the rest of the week, he would ignore me or give me cold shoulder. look who got used again! fed up with guys using me for one thing and one thing only, i gave up entirely on men and concentrated on my friends. then my one friend (cody hehe) realized that i was upset and sad so he asked me what was wrong and we talked for hours and hours about it. finally at the end he was all so 'who do you like right now?' and i was all 'well i didn't really like anyone up until now," he was confused so he asked, 'what do you mean?'. i couldn't help but fall for him, honestly find a guy who would listen to everything you have to say. so eventually i told him it was him and he went quiet for a while and i thought i totally scared him off when he started laughing, 'well you see, i've liked you for the past 3 months and i never thought i would hear you say that.' honestly my heart sored. he totally made my day, well my entire month. everything that had gone wrong he had just fixed there. we went on a few dates, spent some time getting to know eachother, then the day before his birthday he asked me out. so we have been together for what? 4 months now and its been going great.
there was a few times where it was hard, for instance - i had this big trip planned out for me and haxton when we were dating at the time. i had planned that me and him would have a romantic get away in Spain with the school trip, me and him making our own fun when we had a chance. however, we broke up and that left me and him on the school trip together. so spring break came along and i dreaded leaving cody's side, but i had no choice - school trip. in spain was i don't know, awkward, but not at the same time. there was moments where haxton would catch my eye and after dating a guy for a year and a half i know what every look in his eyes mean. when he would look at me, it was full of sorrow and compassion almost? i don't know how to describe it, but it drew me closer to him. we spent a lot of time together, getting closer and closer, but we knew we had to stay apart because we had other people at home waiting for us. once we got home though, things went back to normal. him ignoring me, me annoyed with his exsistance. since then me and cody have been fine, better then ever really. sometimes i think he may like my friend, but i know really he is just being nice to her because she is my best friend and well my roommate. i love cody and not going to lie i do miss haxton some days, but really me and him are better off a part. we are from different worlds. me and cody have the same friends - like the same music - like doing the same things - are afraid of the same things. i couldn't find someone more like me ever.
try find someone who plays hockey, guitar, bends over backwards for your happiness, does anything to make you smile, passionate about your relationship, writes poetry, wants to spend every second with you, family adores you, your family adores him, he is always there for you, makes sure your friends are happy too, stands up for you when its his HOCKEY team, would pick you over hockey if he had to - cody amazes me in ways i can't even explain and i have never been happier! not even when i was with haxton.. i love cody more than words can describe.
heart heart heart
 MiirandaDoll- · Thu Apr 30, 2009 @ 03:03pm · 0 Comments |
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