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Can you forgive me for this, after all the pain can you still love me after all ive done , will you yell at me so I may learn your pain , so that I never heart your heart again so I cause you no more pain I want to take the pain ive given to you, with the blade at my skin that’s what I intend to do
1….2..3... I count the wrongs to your heart and leave a mark for each , a tare in my flesh for each in your heart 4,5,6,7,89,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17 ….and so on tile ive forgiven my self for the pain ive caused you is dull and gone 61..62..63..like a violinist bow , I draw back the blade to play the song of forgiveness and suffering against my skin ..the blade grows heavier , and my eyes start to shut…214..215..216.. I count out loud ill keep drawing my bow it across my skin…over and over…till you forgive me … my eyes fall shut and i drop the knife. stained with blood …my world grows dark...yet im not dead…?