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Have you ever thought that doin what your head wants is/was the best thing to do when your heart is screaming at you to do something else? Well, I have..and for the first time in my life i had to chose between doin what was best for my son and doin what was best for me..
Don't get me wrong I love my son with all of my heart. I thought that giving his daddy a last chance was the right thing to do..but in the long run when i thought about it long enough..daddy just didn't seem to serious about us..our family..
Was considering this choice a bad thing to do in the first place seeing how he has ******** me over more than one occasion? To others..yes it was..but i can't see things very clearly from others point of view..well i can..i'm just very stubborn and like to figure things out on my own..even if it means ******** up..lol..i know this site sensors everything which is kool..lol
I am a very caring person and I am and always be down for the people i love and care about so yes i did think it was the best thing to do..or atleast consider it
The other option i have(goin with my heart wants) is to be with someone who makes me smile..makes me happy..some one who has done no wrong to me whatsoever...
I may have or may not have ******** things up with this person that i want to be with..I know i said i needed time to figure things out and i'm through with trying to figure em out..The best choice was and still is right there in front of me and I was very stupid thinking otherwise..
When i talk to this person or just hear him speak its like my heart just opens up and i'm all happy again..NO..I'm not emo...so please don't go there..
Anyways..making a choice like the one i had was not a very easy one to do for me and the ppl who reads this please try to understand where i'm coming from and please don't judge me otherwise..
I used to be very good at writing journals when i was still in school but i just got lazy over the years..lol...so yeah comment if you want..if not that's fine too..there will be more later.. dramallama