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wtf is wrong with our stupid frail human hearts. I mean i get dumped on my a**. we r still buds, but then it takes my best friend grinding with him for 2 very long songs, for me to realize im still in love with him. the heart wants what the heart wants eh? BS! Why the ******** does my eart have to want him. Who has sooo totally moved on to my best friend. Who by the way is totally obv to all this - i didn't have the heart to tell her crying so yeah. Like honestly. I have tons of other guys after me. asking me out. why do i have to have him? at first i thought it was just the dumping thing, but you don't start crying when your song comes on and he's dancing with someone else( not my bff i had told her at this point) when your just wanting him for you to brake up with him. Honestly though we never really danced to it but we spent too hours laying on eachother with it on repeat. so there for its our song. augh, as of now i hate my heart. and i know it's not just you know i like you like, from when we were in grade 4, this is high school, they like you because they think you will ******** them. but seriously. I asked another guy oput prior to my realisation, he was bus wioth one of the guys who like me, he liked me too but apparently didn't want to hurt the friendship. Any way the guy who likes me who is the guy i asked outs bud, emails me. here:
H: I wanted him to say yes
M: Why don't you like me?
H: Yes, but i didn't want you to get hurt, I wanted you to be happy.
SEE! SEE! SEE! WHy can't i like a guy like him! Honestly! And then theres this other guy i keep on coming back to, but i keep on hurting so he's out of the picture, i dont want to hurt him again. augh, stupid ******** b***h of a heart! evil heart evil heart evil