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The world grew dark but only around me,
the sun lost its light but only to me,
and everything grew cold.

It was silent except for th beat of my heart,
then there was a voice, a sigh, i looked around
nobody was there, i only thought the worst.

I couldn't move, couldn't speak i just stood and listened
then there was a gunshot, a scream,
i still couldn't move...only listen to the screaming.

I felt a hand on my back,
got pushed to the ground,
i have no self control of my body,
now im on my knees, crying and scared.

Now it's silent, i feel alone,
it's silent and im alone in the dark,
a voice...no a cry...is somewhere here with me in the darkness,
i don't know if i should be happy or sad now.

Someone's talking, no someone praying...
another gunshot...the praying stopped...
i think i'm alone again...but no i can't be...
now it's just me and the person with the gun...
i'm crying again now.

A blinding light...my eyes adjust...
all around me bodies everywhere...
now i see a man...with a gun in his hand...
yet i still can't move...what do i do...what can i do?
Nothing...

I just sit...and wait...i guess for my death...
the man just stares...and now he's walking away...
i feel confused...can i get up...yes...
can i speak...yes...why did all of this happen?
Does anyone know?

I get up...look around...i see doors...
do i go...or do i stay...what's the right thing to do?
I start to walk...i'm leaving...can't stay
is that so wrong?
I don't think so...i reach the doors...
reach for the handle...why is there a gun in my hand?

I look back...one last time at the people i had killed...
why i ask myself...why?
The gun has one bullet left...
I put it to my head...think of what i did...
and pull the trigger...was what i did so wrong?
You decide...i don't think so...