i have never thought to look at myself as what other people see. i have just always tried to be what i thoght was morrally right or .... well just fun.never have i had any doubts about what i was going to be or do.all my life i was taught to be all that i can be. i know that i havent been doing that.i think my friends veiw me as some b*tch, i mean common look at me , i say what i think without thinking about it, i constantly blow up over little things, i can hold a grudge for a long time, but man noone really knows me . people dont see me when i cry mself to sleep b/c of things i've lost, not to metion poeple. they dont see how much i care about each and every one of them even when im mad. its like i have this big shell around me and noone can break it. maybe i dont let people get to close cause im scared. im scared im gonna lose them and i dont want to get hurt. hell idk. right now i proballysound like i be long in a mental instatuteion. i just have alot on my mind, and if i could sit here for ten hours and tell tou every singnle part of my life i would but i cant. i have school, im sick with somekind of cold, and have to bake like 6 diffrent things to take to my aunts house. so id say im pretty busy. i guess ill just have to continue this some other time when i think i can devote more time to it.talk to everyone later. bye.$ sport_79$ p.s. have a happy thanksgiving. rolleyes rofl mrgreen razz
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