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Journal time again..

gosh I need this DX

started school a week ago, its ok, teachers are cool.. but I'm changing to morning, soon I hope, and I wont have the ones I really liked =/ that sucks....

oh well... so~ umm.. today is friday, I'm used to having classes in saturdays but tomorrow I wont cuz in this new school there are not classes in saturdays, in the morning there are... in the night there are, but not mondays at night so its kinda weird..

I tried to relax today, tony asked me to work with him with another funny video clip, just finished doing the voice recordings..
and I was talking with a friend when it hit me..

I was so happy seconds ago and then POW.. I started crying.... I dont know what it was but I felt like something deep inside started to eat me.. I think its the virus again, I didnt got all my meds this week because I cant have them in the middle of the class and all that stuff and... xX I think I'll have to start getting them somehow........

it felt so deep, so full, yet so close and so empty... like it was erasing my inner self... Now I'm writing, who knows what I'll do then, just threw a shoe to the door...

I DONT FCKING KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW.... TT_TT I just wanna cry alone in a corner and make this pain go over... It was pefect minutes ago and it just...v AXDFRXTGDBTH!!!!! AAAAAAARGH

;~; help..? not really. .I dont need help... I need to finish this, to make it over... to ******** stop it..... *sigh*......

-dont mind this, tomorrow or the next day I'll delete it anyways-