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hey i got kinda bored and i felt alittle down so i wrote a free verse poem...i kinda realy needed something so here's what i wrote:

Wallowing here in my little pool of sadness, waiting for someone...anyone with a caring heart, open arms and an ear to listen to what I have to say. But alas, I am invisible to everyone, or at least seem to be. They just walk on by and act if nothing was there. Perhaps a few might glance ant they would probably ponder "What the heck is up with her?" or "Hope she's ok." or maybe even "I'm way to occupied to see what's wrong with her so I'll just keep on walking." Heartless, Selfish, Evil people. All of them every single one! With not a care in the world to spare a minuet of your time to help or care about one of your kind. We all come from the same dirt and you still treat each other so harshly. And why is that?
This world is so dark and hateful it's suffocating. I'm so tired of everyone ignoring me and acting like I'm some sort of monstrosity!! I'm not. Why do you judge me when you haven't even gotten to know me yet? Why do you assume so much? You know NOTHING! NOTHING!
The mask that you wear oh how beautiful it looks, so happy and full of joy. So cheerful and kind looking. I wish I could be like that. Real though, not fake like you. My flame that keeps me warm has gone dim, surrounded by all the darkness that cokes it out. Not a soul can kindle it, help it, help me.
I call out ...but no answer. I yell... but no reply. I scream at the top of my lungs and still no reply from anyone! NO ONE!!!
So I still sit here, bleeding my heart out and crying my eyes out and for what?! NOTHING. Maybe the pain is the reason. Being kicked so many times yeah, that’s a reason. Pain. The pain you've caused. It's tearing away at my insides and I can't take it anymore!
STOP IT!! STOP THIS!! Please hear me!! Listen! Please! Why do you pretend to not see, not hear the screams of my heart that you've stabbed and kicked and shot and hurt? I'm hurting wallowing here in my little pool of sadness. Sitting...waiting for the one thing that I need just to put a smile upon my face.
I reach out and you back away. I attempt to approach but the shackles of pain hold me back. The shackles that you put on me. I'm exhausted, trying to escape this Hell Hole that you put me in. Can't you see what you're doing to me? Can't you see that I'm hurting?.....Well I am!!! But you'll never know, only cause you don't want to know. Only cause you're selfish and too occupied with the fakeness of the world.
I'm so cold. So left out. And yet I have not gotten what I want, No, need! But my desires are nothing you would care about. My being alive is nothing you would care about. And if it was...it wouldn't be the care that I desire...that I need.
Warmth. You've taken it away, day by day you have. But I want it back! Please give it back!! I demand it back from you!! But like I said you don't hear me. You can't hear my soul screaming and that aggregates me. But as I said you don't care.
So what's the point any more? Heck, I don't know and neither do you. You don't know anything you ignorant fool! You have no soul! you have no heart! You wicked person! why do you pick me to torcher?!
Stop pretending and love me. Stop ignoring me and listen cause you know I'm here. I know you see me. And I see you. But you still choose, to hate me. Why?
I don’t' hate you even though you hurt me. I can't hate even tough I have every right to...I just can't, for some odd reason I just can't. I can't hate anyone...even if I want to with every fiber of my being. Every part of me is saying so but I can't obey. I have to fight. I have to keep trying...just at leas to get a hint of attention from you.
But I'm still here wallowing in my little pool of sadness...waiting... hoping that you would give me what I desire. What I need.
So I stand here before you in my little pool of sadness wondering if you are capable of taking a step...and giving me my desired need. Give me back my warmth and kindle my flame. Make it bright again so that it could wipe out every inch of darkness that has cluttered my heart. Every inch that tries to hide. Let me feel whole again, let me be free. Keep me close and I will never leave.
Help me get out of my little pool of sadness and give me what I need ...Give me my hug.

~by shelly

so what do u think? my mom says i could win an oscar or whatever with that lol. comment if u wish.