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Adam Epitaph
After 9 months of a very happy relationship , my love decided to leave me .

Now , I'm not one to b***h about my problems for the whole world to see , but I can't help it right now . Maybe I just need someone to confide in . Maybe someone can tell me what is going on .

In an average week , we were together about 3 days . We practically lived together .

About a half hour ago , I received a comment from her that she didn't want to be in a relationship right now , and she finally revealed that she was afraid of commitment .

Quote:
We've been together for so long , Adam.
It'd be easier to break up now, then it would a year from now.
We aren't going to be together forever, you know that. FOREVER is only is fairytales.
It's gotta end eventually. No one stays together that long.
We're only kids still.

&+ I'm scared of commitment.


Yes folks , after 9 months , she is afraid of commitment .

She told me she loved me so much , and she has been the only person in my life to ever say that .

Quote:
Adam, I've been thinking about the other night when you asked me if I wanted to be with you.
I don't think I do anymore. Things change, and so do people.
I'm not going to lie, when I was with you the other night, laying in your arms looking into your eyes,
everything did feel perfect. I swore for a second my heart stopped beating. and when I left you, I felt so empty.

You don't need me, I just think you're scared of being alone.
and just the feeling of not having someone .
But after a while that feeling starts to go away, i promise.


i just dont think we should be together.


If things were so great , why did you end it ?

I could write about this forever and ever , but I have better things to do . Maybe I can fi the rest of my problems . Maybe I can get my grades up , or get a job . Hell , maybe even both . I'll get my license .

Maybe this is just the end of the beginning , not the beginning of the end .






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Laughs At Death
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commentCommented on: Mon Mar 02, 2009 @ 09:27pm
I am sorry to hear the pain you are going through, and can sympathise somewhat. Someone I loved dearly and thought was The One left me after being together several months. I thought there was never going to be anyone else, but there have been others. I thought that there was something I was doing which was wrong, and then I realized that it was no one's fault. Things just sometimes happen, and although we can try to change them, sometimes we just have to accept and move on. It sounds to me as though she needs a little time to figure things out in her mind. Almost as though she has such feeling for you, that she has no idea how to express it, and is scared of it. It also seems as though she was not taking the relationship as seriously as you were, what with the FOREVER is only in fairytales. The best thing I can offer is to give her some time, and some space (but still be friends) and hope for the best.


commentCommented on: Mon Mar 02, 2009 @ 10:03pm
That is really lame of her to break up with you in a comment. She could at the very least of talked to you in person, especially after such a long and most likely, close relationship.

Have you tried talking to her about her fears of breaking up? To me, it sounds like she loves you very much and is afraid of your relationship ending, so, instead of working through it she's breaking it off with you so she won't be even more hurt in the end or so she has some control over any bad feelings she might have eventually.

If I were you I'd try talking to her - letting her know that you're not asking her for forever, just for the now, if that is what you're looking for. My boyfriend and I have had the same sort of conversation because neither of us are ready for that sort of commitment.

I'm around if you ever want to talk.



ThisisEmery
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xXSincerely CassXx
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commentCommented on: Tue Mar 03, 2009 @ 12:39am
you are extremely lame... /:


commentCommented on: Tue Mar 03, 2009 @ 10:32am
*Hugs*

My heart goes out to you.

But a couple of things:


If she broke up with you after 9 months, isn't it
better than a year?
Do you NEED her, I mean, if she's afraid of
commitment, weren't you wasting your time?
Can't you find someone better? That want to be
with you, forever?



DOMiNANT l 3MOTiONS
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fififriend
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commentCommented on: Wed Mar 04, 2009 @ 03:02am
I think that maybe she is just being stupid, and she should have said that in a comment. Forever is not just in fariytales and as far as i can tell forever isnt even long enough to be with the person you love most in the world. Also just because you kids doesnt mean anything, it doesnt mean you cant love each other just as much. If she is afraid of commitment then why have your two been together for 9 months. and as for people changing, ******** that, it doesnt matter if they change you ALWAYS love them no matter what they do you still fell in love with them for a reason. Me and kassy have been best friends for 9 years and we changed a hell of alot but that doesnt change that we still love each other dearly!! I would still easily die for her. Things change, but you have to hold on and and trust that you will make i through. Plus you would never be alone you have lots of people that i'm sure love you. I hope i helped. heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart


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