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i would like to think of myself as a mature person, of course i am clear that i am not.
i am full of self doubts, i am not particularly good at anything, of course this does not stop me from trying to achieve what i want. I rather spend time trying to enjoy myself that it has lead me to put certain things as a lesser priority, i have paid dearly for this and i have felt shame and humiliation. I have often been accused as being naive and
that used to make me angry but time proved to me that perhaps the arguments i used to defend myself where the ones that were incorrect. i want independents but my actions thus far are quite the contrary to what i want or better said i have strayed
from the path i need to take in order to achieve that independents. Although i know this of me i find comfort in my ability to find friends to care for and to be truly blessed to have a certain person to love and hold close to me, i would truly give my all to this person.