i...am...very...freaking...mad
i cant stand it anymore!! i am so mad!
im trying to maintain my anger by not exploding into violence while people are pushing me off the edge...
i'm jus rlllllllllllllllllly mad...and kinda sad...
wanna know why? well...fine read the rest if u do...but its kinda pathetic...but it kinda meant a lot to me...
ok...well afraid asked me to be in her band for talent show and i said no cuz she said the only spot wuz guitar and i knew id be nervous...so then she asks me again and i say fine...like after that day i wuz happy but i didnt show it cuz i kept complaining but only cuz i didnt know how to act because it wuz the first time someone asked me to be in the talent show with them so i wuz yeah...excited but then they said i wuz gonna sing...i didnt want to...but they kept telling me to so i say fine...and then they change me back to guitar...i stop complaining cuz i wuz happy...i practiced so much but spending 4 hours practicing cuz my fingers have been stiff and then...ring...i get a txt saying i'm kicked off the damn bad...sure i didnt want to show my disappointment but damn i wuz so freaking pissed that i got replaced......then i forgot about it and talent show is here!!! ahhh! when i saw the band try out today i couldnt evn look at them...i'm serious...i rlly could (sorry for those who might read this thats on the band but seriously) i couldnt evn look at u guys cuz i wuz afraid id go crazy either with anger or i'd hav tears roll down my eyes...so right when tryouts were ovr i rushed through those doors not looking back at any of the instruments cuz then i'd probly scream which is why when i listen to music now i think of the band and i cant think of music the same...
WOW ITS A BRICK WALL!! LOL (wow this entry is long...i'll make it longer ha ha)
well im also mad...cuz i think i'm jealous...
i hate being jealous...this time tho...i'm not gonna say why
i jus am...i'm jealous AND annoyed...jealous and annoyed...jealous and annoyed!!
not like someone is actually annoying me...but more like...jus the person themselves annoy me..*hint* a couple girls *hint* k i'm done with this
ALSO!! if u read my journal...idc if u ask about the jealousy part...but seriously...for those of u who go to my school...seriously lol dont remind me of the talent show lol
 -xky0ko-chanx- · Wed Feb 25, 2009 @ 02:16am · 1 Comments |
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