"It's lacking strings of words
with punctuation at the ends.
But should I trust this dialect,
To convey the right effect?"
Dear Frankie;
You're so beautiful in every way, I can't even believe you're
gone. I can't understand why you'd be taken away from me, you were
always such a good kid. You were born to be some kind of angel, and I
know it's pretty cheesy but that's okay 'cause we were always the most
cheesiest kids around.
Do you remember the first time I met you? I thought you were such
a weirdo, randomly sitting in front of me and just going on and on
about yourself. You refused to leave me alone even when I was
practically yelling at you, you were determined,huh? It was pretty cute
how you stumbled out of your seat though, you always had this way of
making the most awkward of situations somewhat adorable . I think it
was your talent. I met you about four years ago and ever since you had
this large chunk of my heart.
"We're bffs now?!"
"We were bffs since we came out of the womb, Domdom. Get with it!"
You used to walk me every night to the dumpster 'cause I was
petrified of the dark. We'd spend hours just walking P.joe, just
talking and talking. (Remember p.joe? You'll probably see him wherever
you go). You decided that you were my body guard and that anything that
would go to attack me would have to go through you first...well before
that cat jumped down from the tree. I never heard someone yelp that
loud in my life.
We had such the greatest times, even when you had those a*****e
fits and decided it was okay to sneak up on me and give me mini heart
attacks. Oh,oh, remember the time you took me to the movies? We were
such rude basturds, throwing popcorn at the screen and screaming "STOP
DON'T DO THAT" or "NO NO NOT THE CLOSETTTTTT....Dumb b***h." whenever
the chick went near the killer or someone got killed. It was great, one
of those kodak moments.
I still have that roll of pictures from when we were so little!
Y'know the ones with the funny faces and you in your pjays, even if I
promised never to show anyone your "indecent looks" I might break it
just to show the world how amazing you were. Gosh,the way you dyed your
hair to look like the guy from A Fire Inside and even if made you look
very fagolicious it was your thing. You're the only guy I know that was
only an inch or two taller and about 40 pounds thinner Oh that little
tummy/"six pack in process" of yours! I'm always gonna miss that goofy
of smile of yours and that extremely girly laugh.
"Did your mom ever teach you how to laugh?"
"Did your mom ever teach you how to ********?!"
"No,that's illegal."
"Oh...well...my mom didn't,if that's what you're wondering!"
I plan on getting all those pictures developed as soon it's found.
I know, I know I'm such a scatter brain. I do have that picture you
randomly gave me when you still had the black hair,it says "hot bod" in
really big letters in the back, I smile everytime I look at it. I
really wish I was able to see you again, pictures aren't even
satisfying enough. They can't be, nothing can capture you in all your
glory. I'd kill for just one more day with you, just one more simple
day. I don't even care what we'd do, we could sit and just look at
eachother or we could go to the moon and it wouldn't matter 'cause I'd
have you back all for myself.
Remember Neverevereverland? That place was so rad and all the
days we spent just hanging out next to a tree that we sworn had a face
on it had to be some of the loveliest times of my life. I can't see
myself ever forgetting those days and I assure you I never will. Oh
gosh,and the day you came and demanded I go with you to
Neverevereverland and showed me how "the rich live" by putting all the
dirty old garbage furniture and making it all home like. That was one
of the sweetest moments ever. Ah,and how you came with your homemade
soup whenever I was sick. It's the only soup I'd ever eat, it was so
yummy. I used to love being sick knowing you'd come by with it, now I
hate the idea of snow.
I also still have your gym pants,I did warn you I didn't plan on
giving them back. As well as that itty bitty cheese fest of a shirt.
I'm not getting rid of them,even if they don't fit.
Gawd damn, I'm crying again and I just imagined you here yelling
at me on how "stupid" I'm being. But you just don't understand, you're
by far one of the greatest things to ever mutter a word to me. I can't
stand the fact that I'm never gonna see you again or that we're never
gonna have a conversation or even a hug anymore. Y'know how much I
loved those hugs too.
You changed me so much over time, making me into the girl I am
today. You helped me get better in my worst moments and stood with me
when anyone else would've just given up and dropped me like the bad
habit I was. I'm never going to forget how you went ballistic and tried
to go after that guy. Yet,I'll always remember how sensitive you were
and how hard it was for you when your mom was in the hospital. You're
such a unique character, perfectly imperfect.
I still have some of those letters you sent me, in this little
box with notes from everyone. Even the little edit DomieFrankie
Shakedown! You must of been the master of cliche and cheese, but that's
okay,I loved you for it. One of them is you ranting about the kids who
jumped you and stole your cds. "Who the ******** steals cds now?! What the
hell?! DO YOU STEAL CDS!? GET A ******** COMPUTER!", even in your
hostile state you were humorous. I guess you can say this is going to
be your last letter or at least part of it. I can't see this ending and
I'm not going to let it. Ever.
I love you, sweetie. Don't you forget that. I'll love you till the day I die and then some. Where ever you are I know you're watching down on us and keeping
everyone who loved you safe like you did when you were still on this
planet.
You keep smiling and spread those wings, heavens just got the most
amazing angel now that you're there. All those angels must be jealous
of you and your gorgeous ways.
My memories will always be the greatest gift you ever gave me.
Rest in Peace my darling.
Franklyn Alexander <3
1.3.1991-1.19.2009
You were taken way to soon.
"I'll give you all I can,
A flower and a hand.
I hope this helps you see
Signed, sincerely me."
