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My life was happy until the koreans came.........

I fell in love with this guy his name is Chris Jung, he is a Korean, and he will go back to Korea soon, it breaks my heart when I think about it. He never noticed me, he never talks to me and even looks at me, and he likes my other classmate, Soraya Amer, but he already has a girlfriend back home at Korea. I know he’s a playboy but I didn’t like him because of his looks, I liked him because he was so quiet and he is so humble. When I think about me and him, I think we’re like Tenma and Karasuma, because Tenma likes Karasuma, and Karasuma is so quiet and humble too [like Chris]. Well, I know he doesn’t like me and I accept it, I cry about it all the time and everyday. Well, he will go back to Korea soon, so I should at least forget about him. I told my best friend, Jemi Tan, about it, but she told it to her friends Nadine [Which I hate] and Micole, I got mad at her but I just forget about it, but they always talk about it and one of our classmates heard it and its Amin Amer and Miggy De Leoz, which is the ones who always starts a rumor, eventually they kept on teasing me and soon everyone in class knows about it, then one day my best friend pulled a trick on me, she planned to get my hanky and give it to Chris, well, my classmates agreed to do it, they got my hanky [ which is important to me because I have colds], then they gave it to Chris, I was mad and I couldn’t get it from him because I was shy, so my best friend volunteered to get it for me, that was her plan the whole time, because she likes Chris too. She wanted to go to Chris and talk to him, it was her dream to talk to him, but I just laughed about it. Then at recess, she planed another trick and she told our classmates about it, which they agreed again, their plan was to pull me outside [which I didn’t want to go outside because Chris was there] and they called Chris to tell him that I like him, they all pulled me outside and my hands we’re pail red, I tried my best to get my hands out of their hands and good think I did, I was angry but I just sat and drank water, then we saw Chris outside our classroom, but I didn’t mind it, until they we’re telling me, “ Roselle halika nandito si Chris ”[which he didn’t understand] , I didn’t mind it, then I looked at him then they said, “ Roselle come her, Chris is here, UUUYY” [They all said], then from his face I could tell that he understands everything we’re talking about, then he suddenly walked away. At dismissal, when I was sitting alone because I was sleepy and trying to sleep, I saw Chris, I saw that he was suppose to go in our classroom but when he saw me, he stopped and looked at me madly and didn’t go inside anymore, from what I think he’s mad at people who likes him which I hate, because I like him. Well, he’s going back to Korea soon, so why waste my time on him, he doesn’t like me anyway, But I would be very happy when he tells me he loves me or likes me personally, and if he does I would be very very sad because my best friend would hate me, be jealous of me and would be sad [because she likes Chris too] and Chris will go back to Korea soon and how about us? So it’s better to forget about him, it’s January 07, 2009 and he will leave at February 21 or 26, 2009, So I don’t have any chance , I just wish before he goes back to Korea, I would confess and tell him I like him, love him and I would really miss him. And I would feel happy.


Many days have passed and he still didn't notice me, I liked him so much but he just doesn't like me, until i found out that he likes my best friend, not Soraya Amer anymore, it did hurt me so much, until one day i gave up , i started to like someone else.... his name is John, he's one of the Koreans, i didn't like him because of his looks, i liked him because his very nice, and I'm not shy to talk to him, and i may have a chance. I thought he was the one, but deep inside i felt that i still like Chris, i tried to stop thinking about it, but i couldn't, then i realized that i like them both [ Chris and John ], After the past last days with them [ i didn't know it at first], i was happy, i was making the last days with them happy and precious until at January 15, 2009, i found out that tomorrow's the last day with John [and i thought it was only him], i cried, ofcourse but i accepted it. And most of all i am sad because, we would miss his birthday which is January 22, 2009, so i planned to give him 100 pesos instead of a gift because i don't have time to buy, until.....

January 16 2009

When i went to school i saw my girl classmates crying, i asked them why, they said that it is all of the Korean's last day today, then i wanted to cry, but i stopped it, i didn't want to cry in front of John and Chris, then i gave John 100 pesos, and i was smiling pretending I'm alright, i was so sad because i didn't get to buy then a goodbye gift, so instead i bought lots of junkfood and drinks worth 170 pesos for all the Koreans, i was so sad because i didn't get to buy them an appropriate gift, i wanted to cry so i rushed to the restroom to cry, then the bell rang, so i went inside are room. I was so sad at class, that i wanted to cry, but I'm stopping it. After school hours, we ate food with them for the last time, we gave each other phone numbers, letters and gifts. Then we had our last meal together with the Koreans. Then when they had to go, John gave Nadine Escano [ My worst enemy] a gift, i was wondering why John gave Nadine, and didn't give everybody a gift,so i got the gift and read the letter inside then when i saw those words, i felt like i was burning that i wanted to cry. The letter says:

Dear Nadine,

I'm really sorry to tell you this, i'm really really sorry, but.... but..... but... I Love You, I am really sorry.

John

I cried while shouting, there are reasons why i felt that:

1. Of all the people why did John like my worst enemy, why not me.
2. He didn't give me a gift and a letter.
3. He doesn't like me as in love, he only likes me as a friend.
4. He could confess to his love one and i didn't get the chance to confess to Chris and John that i like them.
5. Chris didn't give me a letter, which means he doesn't like me.

I cried and cried all day, but i stopped on Monday [back to school], I got over it, but deep deep inside, i know that I'm still very sad and i still love them.

Well, I'll miss you Koreans, as in so much, i love you guys and gals.

Bye Rebecca, Annie, Jimmy, Ju Young, Jeck, Joy, Chris and John, I'll miss you guys, have a safe trip and never forget us.

Well, this are the four few months with them, i didn't get to be with them for a long time, but i felt that i know them well already and that i have been with them for years.

They only went to the Philippines, to study in our school to study English for only two Quarters [second and third quarter], and after they learn English they will go back to Korea.

Schedules:

February 1 2009: Rebecca, Ju Young and John's flight back to Korea.
February 21 or 26, 2009: Jimmy, Annie, John, Jeck, Joy and Chris's flight back to Korea. crying crying