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Yeah, if you haven't noticed (and if I haven't already said this), I really don't get on at all anymore. It's very occasional. I don't even know if there's a point to keeping this account, but I'll stay on it I guess for now.
I've just got a lot of things happening...no, really, it's just the same as always. I guess that's just what I do. Lol. I have finally broken my addiction to Gaia. And honestly, I'm pretty glad, though I still won't forget all the awesome people I met here. =)
Anyway. So you know that whole big euphoria that was the year of 2008? Well near the end it started breaking up a bit. I started crying randomly of exhaustion just like I used to. The breaking point was like...New Year's Day. Weird, huh? Well, I guess that means it wasn't a turning point in my life really after all. It was just a nice break.
that's okay though. At least I won't fall completely into depression anymore because I know that attitude is almost everything, and there's always hope of gaining back another euphoria every now and again.
I really have no idea what causes this. Is it random hormone fluctuation, or is it actually caused by certain events in my life? Is this normal for everyone, or is this just me? eh, I don't really know, but honestly I'm sick and tired of trying to figure things out. Every time I think I understand something about life, something happens to destroy it all. Just like New Year's Day.
I may write more on this weird depression thing later. But for now I'll just let you in on what's been happening to me externally rather than internally.
Hm, let's see. Well, I'll just go over today. today's been pretty awesome, and my spirits have been really high. Of course that doesn't mean anything about the surrounding days; there's no pattern to my good days and bad days, and they're not all that dependent on events, either...it's just totally random. but today was good; I'm just super nervous about talent show auditions...I'm going to sing Keep Tryin' and Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro by Utada Hikaru. But I'm just a little worried about forgetting a couple words, and I haven't had any feedback on how I sound, especially on the high notes of Dareka. This whole thing was really last-minute. >.<
But hopefully I'll get Travis to listen to me after school. xD
Then I'll try out, head down to Skyline with whoever happens to be at school still, and then head back to school for winter guard practice! This is our third practice so far, and it's from six to eight o clock. I really love guard. =) I have to say I like color guard much better--I like flagwork better than dancing, and winter guard has a lot of dancing. Also, I feel really cramped doing it indoors. We have to practice in our auditorium, and with eight people it's kinda cramped. >.<
Anyway, Emily just finished typing our sitcom for Creative Writing, so I've gotta go help her with Chemistry homework, and then school will be over! Wish me luck~! ^^
 LadyAlisyn · Wed Jan 07, 2009 @ 07:22pm · 1 Comments |
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