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	Emo Kids Cry
	Emo Kids Cry


I . . . might have to do the hardest thing in my life . . . give up my best friend. I know it's not her fault that we aren't able to hang out, but I'm dying here. I'm so miserable . . . and I don't want to commit suicide. Daniella Azoth · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:02am · 51 Comments


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	You don't want to be my friend anymore because I haven't been able to hang out with you recently? Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:45am


	We're supposed to be friends forever! Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:47am


	I'm sorry . . . but I can't take this loneliness anymore. Even my mom is getting fed up with how we are able to hang out. And my dog can tell that I'm more depressed lately. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:55am


	But. . . Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:03am


	But what? Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:04am


	I'm being punished for my family. I'm sorry for inconveniencing you and your mom. Sorry. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:06am


	How are you being punished? This will make everything better. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:09am


	You don't understand yet, do you? You're my only friend! My first, real friend! I used to never get invited to birthday parties when I was little. I only visited two other girls' houses more than once, but not since fifth grade. Did you know that when I was little I had troubles even communicating with people outside of my family? I have documents that explain how my child was, from the special physical education class I took. I began to think that everybody everywhere actually had a reason to hate me. I never knew what it was, but that's what I daydreamed of, different reasons for people to hate me. Whenever I saw two people talking, in my head I imagined it was about me, never in a good way. But then there's you! You helped me! I know now that at least one person doesn't hate me! Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:16am


	So I'm only useful to you . . . great . . . being used again for someone else's own purposes . . . Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:19am


	What?! That's not what I said! You helped me, you help me every time you talk to me! I found somebody to be friends with, that's you! When I tried out for the school play, I really wished you were there. When it was my turn to sing, nothing came out. I almost started crying. I sat down and waited until the end to take my turn, and the other people trying out kept looking at me and whispering. I completely blanked out when it was my turn again, I could barely remember happy birthday. But I still kept imagining you were there, and how you would've cheered me on. There are some things that you don't know about me, and that's my weakness. I can't express my weakness alot, it makes me cry. Honestly, it's hard not to cry now even though I'm just typing it. I need you Chloe! I need you!. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:26am


	You don't need me at all, which is why I find it useless to be friends. I might as well just exit your life, and make everything better. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:29am


	No! Hear me, please! I'm not lying when I say I need you! Do I need to dig up more of my heart to show you? Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:31am


	No, it's useless to be friends anymore. Goodbye, Stephanie. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:33am


	Useless? My existence is useless? tears, crying I always knew it. I shouldn't have been kidding myself. Thank's for showing me, telling me out straight. Thank you. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:38am


	You are not useless, Miss. It's just that our friendship is useless. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:40am


	I was wrong. You all do hate me. Stop, please. Are you trying to hurt me? Kill me? Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:42am


	What the hell? I do not hate you, Miss. I am not trying to kill you, Miss. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:43am


	Well you are. And people shouldn't kill somebody they don't even hate, which is apparently what you're doing. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:45am


	How are earth am I killing you, Miss? Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:46am


	Many ways!! 1) Lying, because eternity isn't over yet. 2) Calling me Miss. That's not my name. That lady at the bra store even called me by my name. 3) Breaking Shattering my wings. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:48am


	1) I am only doing this for you good, I don't want to be the burden in your life always being depressed about not being able to hang out. 2) Would you rather I call you "Miss Stephanie" 3) How on earth did I do that? Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:52am


	1) That doesn't bother me. Well, it bother's me in a way, I don't like you to be hurt. But its not like it annoys me. 2) Steph. 3) You don't remember? Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:57am


	1) Still. 2) Okay, Stephanie 3) No, I don't. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:59am


	We promised to be friends forever. Broken trust, belief, love, friendship, loyalties, and secrets break my wings. All of them being broken shatters them. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:03am


	We just aren't good friends. It would be best if we found other friends . . . maybe then would we finally be happy. I'm sure you'd be plenty happy with a new best friend. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:07am


	I don't want a different friend. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:09am


	You do, I know it. Everyone would be happier to have a new friend as long as it meant not being my friend anymore. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:10am


	No. I'm different. You're my best friend, forever. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:12am


	No . . . that's not true. I was never your friend. You of course, we mine. You were my best friend, the friend I wanted there for everything. But I was never your best friend, to you I was just someone to keep you company. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:15am


	No! You were my best friend! I made you a valentine! Remember? That's how I showed that you were my bff! And the plushies! And the mints! And the hugs! Even though it was hard for me, because at first I thought you were just toying with me, I tried as hard as I could! Nobody outside my family gave me a hug before, except for Mrs. Kellor, but I understood that. I didn't know why somebody like you, with all potential to become popular, wanted to hug me. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:20am


	I do not have the potenital, nor will I ever have the potential to become popular. You said it youself that everyone thinks I'm weird. But anyways, goodbye Stephanie. It was nice being your friend, I hope your life with be a happy one. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:25am


	Chet thinks you're weird. He's not everyone. Everyone else was just like, "yeah. . . well I put Jon Lee down for everything!!!". You do too have the potential. You have friends like Mckenzie Eisenshenk.(sp). She was the most popular person at Saint Francis. Don't kill me, please. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:28am


	Yeah, but Chet is considered a popular boy. He could influence people if he tried. MacKenzie and I aren't friends. Sure we've talked before, but we aren't friends. gently puts hand on the side of your face This isn't going to kill you. It will hurt the both of us, but time will heal the scars. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:32am


	Chet isn't popular. You're friends. I can tell. Time doesn't heal me. Ever. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:34am


	We are not friends. Honestly. How on earth do you get that message? This time, it will. rubs thumb against your cheek bone Well, bye. I will miss you so much, but I know you'll be better off. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:38am


	The way she looks at you. Like she wants to keep you to herself. Don't make me bite you, like Akamaru bit Kiba. We're always going to be friends. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:41am


	Say what? shakes head slowly No, I don't want to be the burden any more. I want to stop interfering with your life, I don't want to cause any more damage than I already have. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:43am


	Never mind. My 'jealous best friend' sense kicks in when I see her talking to you, because it just seems like you're just trying to get away from me. You don't burden me! You. . . complete me. Does doctor evil impression with hand motion of making a heart Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:47am


	You're jealous . . . of me talking to her. Wow . . . no one has ever been jealous of someone because of me. I do not complete you. If I did, you would always been happy. But you aren't. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:50am


	Oh? That's because I didn't know how show that I'm happy all the time. That's my new year's resolution, to look happier. I'm always happy around you, you just can't see it. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:54am


	Usually it's the other way around . . . normally I'm the one is always jealous of people . . . I can tell that I don't make you happy . . . I can just tell. By the way you talk and the way you look at me. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:57am


	That's my lonely face. I'm pretty lonely when I'm not with you; people have noticed it that aren't me. On my afternoon bus people purposefully like, leave me alone, and Paige, Becca, and that Cody kid all make a comment about how sad it is whenever I'm all alone. I'm working on happier faces and tones though. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:01am


	Why the bloody hell are you sad without me? Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:04am


	Because you're my bff. I like being with my bff. I don't have much else of a reason. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:06am


	Hm . . . Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:09am


	Friends again? Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:10am


	looks down at the floor, and then up at you Sure. Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:11am


	Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:12am


	lips curve into a smile Offline Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:14am


	The bra lady did actually call me by my first name. Offline x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:23am

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